Earned It

EPILOGUE

This was my dream life, me marrying the woman of my life, having children with her and then growing old with her.

For the past 50 years of our marriage I feel nothing but love towards her.

I wake up every morning seeing her face and I close my eyes seeing only her face again.

Every breathe that I take is always for her, her happiness, her sadness and her love.

I never imagined that I will have this life because of the things I've done but seeing her and my four children makes me see that every pain I feel is worth it.

I will never ever regret the things that happened cause those things was my way to my happiness.

I was getting old and I know that this day will come eventually and I just want to have this last words.

First, to my sister Sandra, I'm sorry for all the pain, I am so happy for you have found a very brave man.

To my parents I love you mom, and I'm so sorry for all the disappointment but I'm so thankful for you still love me even for my failures.

To my best buddy, Aaron, I have known that you'll live longer than  me, masamang damo ka eh. But seriously bro thank you so much dahil ikaw yung nandun nung mga panahong ang gago ko. Salamat talaga sa mga pagalit at sapak mo nun. I'm happy that you finally got your forever.

And to my loving wife, I love you, always and forever Baby. I may not be with you anymore but I promise you that I will always be with you and our children.

I love you so much that even here in heavens I will always love you still.

Your Eros.

I inhale deeply trying to suppress the tears, kahit ilang ulit kong basahin ang sulat na iyon ay naiiyak parin ako.

Its been a year since he left me. Us.

He died peacefully in his office, I remember that morning that I found him.

His sitting on his chair looking out the window, nilapitan ko sya and he had his eyes close akala ko tulog sya but when I touch him I knew that his gone, I know that he already past. That he already rested his soul.

Masakit ou pero alam ko naman na okay na sya na nagawa ko syang pasayahin ang akin lang ay ang unfair nya. I want to be with him too. There is not a day that I wish that he'll come get me but I know that I have things to do. May apart kaming anak and now na maayos na sila all I'm waiting is him. I'm waiting for him to come and get me so we could continue our forever.

Pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko at itinago na ang sulat nya.

I lie on our bed. I rest my head on the pillow and close my eyes when I felt a warm hand touch mine.

And I hear the voice of the only person that I want to be with...

"Baby, let's go. I'm here and I will tale you now"

A tear escaped my eyes...

Ros... My Eros...

I'm finally having my forever...