Unexpected

Chapter 35

Dedicated to @abbylopezlovesyou 2000hi

Chapter 35

The rest of the week passes by as a blur and when the weekend comes I lock myself in my bedroom and curl up in my bed like a fetus. That is the most rational thing I could think of doing  at the moment ; hiding from the world until my mind is clear. Jake has tried to talk to me since that  day but of course I avoided him . As for Zayn I haven't heard of him since then , leaving it to him to say his declaration to you and disappear from the face of the earth .  I'm not going to lie Zayn's declaration has left me really confused ,and so many other feelings such as anxious, because I'm afraid that this story might not  end well , that one of us is might get hurt and the possibilities of me being the one who'll get hurt are high . I always get hurt no matter how hard I try to not to . ashamed , because I may have feelings for another man while I'm in a relationship guilty because I feel as though I'm betraying Jake by admitting it although it's not the case , I feel awfully guilty nonetheless. restless because of the sleepless nights I've spent thinking about his words . And beyond all of those feelings I feel angry  ,angry at Zayn for making me feel all of these in once, angry because he just decided to walk in my life without warning, crushing everything on his path . Angry because all those feelings I was hiding so well deep inside me , he made them bust out . Angry because no matter how harsh he is to me I always come back to him , because deep inside I may love him too.

"Tara?" My mother knock lightly on the door "I'm going to the grocery do you want anything ?" She asks

"No I'm good thanks"

"Okay" I hear her walking away.

"Bitch" Erubya says from my vanity startling me . You

"Oh my gosh you need to stop doing  that"

"What? Calling your mom a name that belongs to her ?  or showing my pretty face around ? " she checks herself in the mirror.

Gosh , I never thought I'd met someone more vain than Harry.

"Both" I cover my head over my head.

I feel her sitting on the bed "what's wrong ?" She asks

"Nothing is wrong" I say but it comes out as a muffled sound .

"Tara" she calls

"What"

"Is it about this boy you're going out with ?" She questions trying to take away the pillow , but I hold onto it .

"No , nothing's  wrong "

"Oh  come on something's definitely up . Talk to me "

"Why should I? I don't even know you hell I don't even know if you real  , if you're not a fragment of my imagination. I don't know what you are "

"I'm a magical creature" she makes a cigarette appears and light it up with a lighter which  she brought up

"What kind ? A guardian ?"

She scoffs "you mean those light beings full of themselves? Please. My kinds don't have names"

"Who are you kidding? All magical creatures have names , from the most insignificant to the most important so I'm not buying your bulshit" 

"Then don't" she lays in bed next to me

"Why are you here ?" I sit up

"I felt like annoying someone"

"And of all people on this planet you choose me ; the girl you've hunt her dreams" 

"I already told you , I didn't give you those nightmares"