breathe {poetry}--

modified appearance

worry funnels through the minds of the unworthy 

for I cannot sleep

busy with beings other than I 

handcuffs wrapped onto my wrists

attached to every man not able-bodied 

strikingly beautiful fears emerge from behind a sequined curtain 

their sensual dance - one I cannot pull eyes from

drawing me forwards; coming closer 

my eyes lost on their curvaceous figures 

my trembling fingers lightly touching the sides of their waists

delicate hands rest on my wrists

they tighten their grip

my gorgeous fears change 

twisting and contorting into ugly men and women 

my heart beat grows faster as they lean in 

my lips whimpering for i have no where to move 

my body grows cold 

shuttering and shaking tremendously

dry 

cracked 

bleeding lips reach my own 

I am frozen in time 

my body still shakes - not from the cold 

but from the untrustworthy fingers with nails that dig into my skin 

my once beautiful fears now root themselves to my body, digging their nail deep into my skin

an everlasting relationship

I cannot tell them to leave 

I do not withhold the strength to say sternly:

no longer do i want you, fear. 

with these beings attached, i am weak 

to be rid of my weakness 

I must be rid of my fears

this i shall do