Going to a school for idols when you're a normal person is hard, but surviving the year with the members of BTS as your classmates takes a whole other set of survival skills. Can your survive this year?
being a sunbae at the school I knew how the sasaengs could get. this year I decided to get there early and sit in the shadows of the school until they unlocked the doors. I really didn't understand how some of my fellow idols could actually like the extreme attention from the sasaengs. It was one thing to love our fans, condoning bullying was another thing entirely. that's when I saw her. she gracefully jogged up the stairs and knocked on the door. I saw our school janitor unlock the door and let her in. he smiled at her like they were old friends. her smile was contagious and I found myself smiling too. was she here last year too?
*back to present*
I sat there hiding in the stall with my feet raised so no one would know I was there. I overheard some girls come in a group to the bathroom. "did you hear she hangs out with the janitor?" one girl scoffed. "maybe that's why they let her in. as a janitor in training." added another. they began cracking up as if it was the joke of the century. "she seems pretty nice though." another voice interjected. "maybe you should help her then" the first voice growled
I covered my ears. I didn't want to hear anymore. I glanced at my watch....2:45pm. I just had to hold on until 3pm. there were still some students who would stay after for extra curriculars but I could still slip out and into Mr. Lee's office.....how did they know I stayed there during lunch? did they know about the mornings and after school too? would Mr Lee get in trouble?! I couldn't let that happen to 할아버지!! I thought of the kind elderly many chasing off the sasaengs with his broom when we first met. he even took me to the hospital to get stitches and stayed with me all night. the next day he took me to his home to meet 할머니. she was a sweet elderly woman who accepted me as her own also. if Mr Lee got in trouble because of me it would affect both of them! the thought of that caused tears to stream down my cheeks. I covered my mouth stifling a sob..... I was alone here in this country. my mom worked really hard in the states to send me here and I couldn't tell her how miserable I was. all I could do was work hard to graduate and make her proud. the dismissal bell finally rang and I was alone in the bathroom. I quickly dabbed my eyes with a cool, damp paper towel, put on my best "I'm ok" face and made a beeline for my locker to collect my things. it was just as bad as I feared. now there was not only bottles hanging but spit ball wads and toilet paper balls stuck to it. I didn't even hear Mr Lee shuffle up behind me with a trash can. "today's youth can be so hurtful" he mumbled as he began to pick the trash off of my locker. I put on my best fake smile as I reached out and took his hands. he already had so much to do. " I can take care of this 할아버지" I said as I began to scrape the trash from my locker and toss it into the trash can. " you go take care of what you need to...I'll see you back in your office" I added the last part in a whisper. "are you sure you're ok?" he asked sounding like any normal concerned grandfather. "I'm ok...really" I smiled. as soon as he had shuffled away I let out a deep breath and brushed away the tear forming at the corner of my eye. he seemed to be ok. I thought to myself. so maybe they don't know I come before and after school. I looked around the hall, making sure the coast was clear before darting into Mr Lee's office.
*jungkook*
I saw her and immediately wanted to sit by her....which was strange because I normally spent a good amount of time trying to avoid girls. They made me so uncomfortable and awkward. I decided to leave the classroom for a bit since we hadn't started yet to clear my head, but it wasn't working. this frustrated me even more. why did I have to notice her? she was a foreigner and a nobody. then why was my heart racing? I heard the teacher call my name snapping me out of my thoughts. I was late. I ran inside calling here as I used my tardiness to distract my nerves as I deciding to sit next to her. "please don't look at me" I prayed silently...but she did. it was more than I could handle. "what?" I snapped mentally scolding myself for the attitude. it was like this throughout the entire day. I wanted to be near her but I didn't know why and my frustration turned into lashing out at her. since I was late for homeroom the teacher designated me to sweep the classroom during lunch. I headed to the janitor's office to ask if I could borrow a broom and there she was again. sitting in his office eating. she must have heard me open the door because she began to call out to the janitor saying that she brought him lunch. I couldn't take it anymore. this girl was invading my head when I had done so well avoiding girls in general. I was just out of my element around them. something inside me must have snapped because during our next class I snapped. Jin hyung tried to stop me but I just wouldn't hear it. I was pretty hateful towards her and she ran out. my outburst hadn't gotten her out,of my head. instead her tears were burned into my memory.
to be continued........
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