Public Diary, could be sad

14|4|16

I'm so alone.
Nobody wants to date me.
Nobody likes me.
Every time I get a crush they date someone else so why bother falling.
I need physical contact, yeah I can online date but only for so long can "-hugs-" works. I need to feel loved. I need to feel my hand in someone else's. I need to feel arms around me. I need to.
I feel so alone because all my friends have someone who's with them and I'm that awkward third or fifth wheel.
I fall for people I can't have.
Even my parents are wondering what's up.
It's not because I am super gay but it's because I am ugly and fat and nobody wants to date me at all.
It's because people don't want to date a fat person.
I just want to be truly loved but since 8th grade I don't know what love looks like.
I was abused and love was calling me names and hurting me.
I can't trust people when they say they love me, if I ever hear that again.

People hate me, that's what I've come to the conclusion of.
Nobody likes me because everyone hates me.