Biggest Fan: A CaptainSparklez Fanfic (Rewriting in progress)

Ch 16 Explaining

POV:Skylar

I walked up the stairs and sighed as I started to rub a towel over my hair and walked into my room.I gasped as I saw Jordan sitting at my desk to my journal."Skylar..."He said softly he stood up and walked towards me."You...you read my personal writing."I said feeling hurt by his sneaking."I'm so sorry."He whimpered quietly.I pushed him away from me and I looked at him with hurt.I shook my head "I can't believe you.You could of asked what happened instead of looking though my stuff."I sighed as I sat down on my bed and tried to keep calm.I looked up at him and sighed"I can't say mad at you."I wrapped my arms around his neck and sighed."Could you at least tell me the story?"Jordan said pulling away."Alright but sit down."He sat down next to me and grabbed my hand."What do you wanna know?"He looked over at the window for a moment then looked towards me."What happened with Andrew?"I sighed lightly as the memories flew back into my mind."Well he was a very good friend to me for a long time and I felt like there was something between us so I asked him out.After a couple of weeks of dating his playfull fights turned into beatings and after each more it got more drutal.I don't know why I stayed with him I just thought that it was all in my head."I let out a soft sigh and rubbed my head.Jordan grabbed my hand "Take all the time you need."I let out a deep breath"Then when he moved in with me I went off to work and when I came back,he was with my ex bestfriend."I let out a growl as I remembered her brown long hair and stupid ugly face."Then I left the room crying and I locked myself in the bathroom.They both were outside the door telling me to come out and they said they were sorry,but I didn't believe a word of it.Then after a couple of minutes of sitting there crying by myself I got an idea."I let out a shiver as I remembered the feeling of the blade cutting my soft skin."I pulled out a razor and started to cut myself."I looked up at him to see his reaction and saw a sad look on his face."Then after I was done I cleaned off the blade and stepped out of the bathroom.They both screamed as they saw my wrists and I passed out in front of them."I lightly sighed as I grabbed Jordan's hand tighter."After I left the hostpital I broke up with Andrew and kicked him out.Then during a couple of months I went into depression and refused to talk to anyone,but when Ally came to comfort me she showed me your videos and I fell in love.Just your videos and everything.Whenever I felt like giving up you were there to stop me."I sighed as I wiped my forehead and looked over at Jordan."Thats about it really."I said softly.I felt his arms around me and I hugged back tightly."Promise me to never do that to yourself again please."He muttered into my hair."I promise"I said quietly.He pulled away and looked at me with teary eyes."You pinky promise."He said pulling up his pinky.I giggled as I squeezed his pinky."Pinky promise."He smiled lightly and hugged me tightly."I love you Skylar."I felt the butterflies I had felt when I first saw him at pax and I smiled."I love you too Jordan."

Wow that was really long to write but I was listening to sad music and I started tearing up ;~: (god damn it kat your almost crying over a fanfiction man up also 1000 READS YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING I LOVE ALL OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACES)-Katty :3