So Much For Apologies

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I felt like I stood in front of millions of people who were laughing at me, but I blinked, and all I could see was Roger still. "Hi Roger, it's nice to see you" I shook, and almost lost my footing.

"Uh... Yeah, Hi" He replied, disgusted.

"Do you want to go in the other room?" I asked nervously. We were still standing in front of the door, and he was pressed against the wall.

"Fine" I followed him as he just walked out of the room. "What do you want to talk about?" He stopped and crossed his arms.

"Um, I don't know, Brian said that he wanted to talk to me. It was a trick"

"Fucking Brian..." He gritted his teeth and looked to the side. It was silent and I looked away, pretending to be thinking about something.

"You know, I'm really sorry" I stared down at my hands.

"Hm, well yeah" I glared at him rudely, he wasn't showing any respect whatsoever.

"I hate to ask this, but what did I do? I honestly have no clue. I thought we were something special" I pouted.

"We don't have anything special, you ruined that actually. I already know that you told him you loved him back, but what about me? You aren't even thinking about me!!"

"Well it's kind of hard to be in a situation like this, can't you tell that I care about you?" He just glared at me, and I think he realized that I do really have strong feelings for him.

"It's just annoying that you can't choose, if you really care you would choose me"

"It's not that simple Roger! Please, I need you to understand" I stepped forward and tried to grab his hand, but he wasn't interested.

"I'm afraid that I don't"

"Please, I'm begging you, I'm sorry" I was really close to him then, and I could feel his heavy breaths on my face.

"I can't play this game with you, either you're with me or you're not" I stepped away.

"Why are you such a dick..." I whispered under my breath.

"You don't know me, I suggest that you don't make assumptions" He said in a deep voice, barely audiable.

"Don't be ridiculous" I muttered. He was speechless for a minute, and I was ready to walk out, but he decided to speak his mind I guess.

"You know what Rose? Freddie wasn't always like this, you don't know him. When you figured out that he snorted cocaine that was NOT his first time" He chuckled, "and everyone knew that. That's how much we care about you, but all you care about is yourself. How could you be going around saying and doing all of these things when you're only 24! I'm sorry to tell you but you don't have any power. I've seen plenty of girls walk in and out of Freddie's life, and what you're doing now is exactly why things are falling apart" I stumbled back a little with my mouth hanging open. "Please, just don't even think, don't defend yourself, because the moment you met Freddie is when everything got fucked up. So from me and everyone else you've screwed over, we'd like to ask you to just leave" Instantly, I felt the hot tears under my eyes, and I felt like a monster.

"I-I'm sorry, I didn't know" I breathed loudly and slowly walked back until I bumped into a piece of furniture. I felt like letting everything out, but no tears came out, only a few welled up around my eyes. I looked behind me to the table that my leg hit, then looked back to Roger. "Goodbye Roger" That was when I walked out of his life. The whole time he spoke I was confused as hell, and by the time I got back to my flat I had forgotten what he said.

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