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AmazingPhil ~ Mental Breakdowns

(A/N) Sorry it's really early for me and this won't be edited so there might be a few typos. I just decided to write this from personal experiences with mental break downs😁 (I'm fine I swear). I hope you enjoy.
You didn't know just what to call them. They definitely weren't due to anything normal like lack of sleep or periods. All you knew was that they could happen because of the slightest things at the most random times. You and your boyfriend Phil called them your mental breaks downs, since you mentally broke whenever they occurred. Previous experiences had been things like Markiplier's speech at the end of his 8 million subscriber video (A/N: true story for me), breaking your favourite mug, or losing electricity for two days straight and not being able to contact your best friend who lived in Ireland. Today's happened to be a discovery channel episode that led you into contemplating your life and existence.
You lay down on the floor, the heat of the fireplace licking your back. You were shaking with sobs as you imagined what death would be like and how far away it was, it could be tomorrow for all you knew.
Phil, on the other hand had no idea what kind of traumatic experience you were going through as he was filing a video with Dan in the other room. You wanted to get up and run into his arms, call out to him, let him save you from your mental hell hole, but you couldn't. Your brain wouldn't let you move, you couldn't control your thoughts or emotions let alone your body. You were trapped with your devastating imagination.
You barely heard the room, where Dan and Phil were recording, erupt with laughter, and didn't hear at all as Dan told Phil that he was going to get up for tea. The world had gone silent for you as Dan dropped his empty mug on the floor and stared at you in terror. You saw him sprint from the room, leaving the remnants of his mug on the floor, and return with a frantic looking Phil.
Phil skidded to his knees beside of you, his face calming a little as he saw you. You began to hear Phil's voice echo through your mind, and looked up into his sky blue eyes, tears still streaming down your face. He picked you up in his arms and carried you to the sofa, where he placed you on his lap and wrapped his arms around you for a hug.
Your heart beat gradually slowed down to a normal pace as you focussed on Phil's voice, pressing your cheek into his chest.
"It's alright, everything's okay now baby. I've got you, and I won't let anything happen to you," Phil whispered to you.
"I-I love you," you stuttered, your voice still heavy with your previous cries.
"I love you too."
You were startled as you felt a warm tear fall on your cheek, it wasn't you since had cried yourself out a few minutes ago. Phil's body began to shake with sobs as he choked.
"I nearly had a heart attack when Dan came running back to me saying that he thought you were dying. I was afraid something had happened, th-that I was g-going to lose you," He cried, his last words barely audible.
"I'm sorry Philly," You mumbled into his chest.
"I'm sorry too, I should have known. I should have been there for you."
"It's okay. I'm okay now, I promise. I don't know what I did to deserve someone as loving and caring as you. I love you so much Phil."
"I love you too (Y/N)"