Your funeral was today, Logan. I saw your mother and father along with your brother and sister. We cried. It wasn't open casket. And I am glad. I don't think I could handle seeing you there motionless again. And this time, knowing that there is no chance you will be back.
After the funeral i walked over to you mom. She hugged me and whispered in my ear. "He loved you. More than you know." She released, smiled, and walked away.
I saw Jake, Brandon, and Alex today. Brandon still looked really upset. So he walked away to his car. Jake and Alex waved and then left in their cars.
I went back to the apartment and layed in your bed in your hoodie watching TV. I have stayed away from the social media. I don't want to know what people are saying about your death. But I log into Twitter. There are so many tweets from fans to me saying sorry for my loss. I logged out immediately.
I took a bunch of movies from our movie shelf. All your favorites. I sat on our couch and watched them all.
Jake came over after the first movie. He stayed for the rest. It was nice to not be all alone in our big apatment. He made dinner. Mac and cheese. The good kind. That kind you love Logan. I didn't want Jake to make it at first because it was just a fond memory of times that you and I shared. I ended up eeatign it. Just one more time. I haven't done any shoppign for anything. Which means yes food to. I dont eat really. Maybe half a meal a day. Jake and Alex both think I have lost to much weight and it isn't healthy. I will be okay though Logan. I promise.
