Never in my entire life did I think that I would actually lose him. He would have followed me to the ends of the earth if I asked him too. I still dream about him. I dream about the way he sounded when he told me, his voice not even wavering as he walked out of my life without so much as a second thought. I knew I treated him like crap, but I loved him. Oh God, I loved him...
"Good morning, Tsukki."
Yamaguchi grinned as he bounded up to his boyfriend. Kei only grunted in response and the two began their walk to school. As per usual, Tsukishima had his headphones on, music blasting in his ears. Yamaguchi was always worried about Tsukishima losing his hearing, but he also liked hearing the music as they walked. Yamaguchi's hand brushed Tsukishima's and his breath hitched. They never touched in public and if they happened to by accident, anxiety and fear would take over, making Tadashi feel sick to his stomach as he braced himself for Kei's remarks.
However, this time his boyfriend took him by surprise and actually took his hand. Kei laced his fingers through Tadashi's and gave his hand a small squeeze. A light pink blush spread across the smaller boy's face and he looked up at his boyfriend, love and admiration clear in his eyes.
"Stop that." Tsukishima said.
"Sorry Tsukki."
Yamaguchi blushed and looked away. He knew that Tsukki didn't really like it when he stared, but he couldn't help it. He found the blonde to be quite attractive and sometimes he just wants to bask in the beauty that is Tsukishima Kei.
"Are we still studying tonight?"
When Yamaguchi didn't receive an answer, he pulled Tsukishima's headphone off some and asked again.
"Are we—?"
"We always do." Kei interrupted. "And don't do that."
Yamaguchi frowned slightly and let go. The couple walked through the school gates and Tsukishima dropped his hand and immediately took a few steps away from the dark haired boy. Yamaguchi's frown grew and he let out a small sigh. He loved Tsukki, he really did, but sometimes being with him was hard. He never even wanted to hold hands unless they were the only two at home and had no chance of getting caught.
There had been one time where Kei had literally shoved him off his lap and onto the floor because he thought he heard the door shut downstairs. No one had actually been there. That night Tadashi went home with both a bruised ass and an aching heart. He always pretended like it didn't bother him, he was good at that, but deep down he was hurting and he knew that would never change.
Kei wanted to keep them a secret so Tadashi figured he could either suffer in silence or lose Kei as both his friend and his boyfriend altogether. He decided the latter option seemed a lot less painful so he kept quiet and dealt with having to hide the one he loves.
Yamaguchi followed Tsukishima into the gym and sighed again. He knew people talked about that, claiming he followed the other around like a lost puppy. Tsukishima never stood up for him, but he didn't tell him to stop either so Yamaguchi never saw it as a problem.
The boys changed for practice and Yamaguchi walked to the far corner of the gym. Two weeks ago he somehow managed to hit Daichi, Tanaka and Hinata once and Kageyama twice all in one practice so he decided to stay away from everyone after that.
Daichi insisted that it was okay, but Yamaguchi didn't really care. Suga would come and toss to him sometimes but a lot of the time he spent by himself. He knew he wasn't as good as the rest of the team but he was trying his best and that's what matters, right?
Practice ended and everyone changed back into their school uniform. Yamaguchi moved slowly, not really looking forward to what the day held.
"Hurry up, Yamaguchi."
