Hannily/Emison battle

Chapter 31: Mixed Emotions

Emily's POV

''Em..'' Ali speaks again slightly more audible this time.

I can't answer back because of the tears coming from my eyes and my throat is choked up from crying so much, I'm sobbing, my whole body hurts from the amount of tears escaping from my body.

After a couple of minutes I feel a hand on my cheek. I know it's Ali's just from the touch. The touch I know so well and adore so much.

I look down once more and she is staring deeply into my eyes.

''What happened?'' She asks softly.

I'm too scared to tell her. Too scared to tell anyone because I'm not allowed to talk about the 'ultimatum' how do I even know 'A' can hear me. How do I know that 'A' even has Hanna, how do I know anything. I'm useless. Im a failure of a girlfriend I know that for sure.

I dodge the question for now, give me some time to think through what I'm going to tell Ali.

''How are you? I can't image what you've been though, I think I should be asking you that question. What's been happening Ali?'' I ask feeling so many different emotions at once.

As soon as I ask Ali frowns and I can see the look of terror spread across her face. I can tell that she's been through a rough ride. And now Hanna will be going through it too.

Just then the memory of last time I seen Ali pops into my head. We was at the Edgewood motor court motel and she told me she loves me, pecked my lips and left. Sometimes if i close my eyes I can still feel her lips on mine.

She left me again.. But she had to leave because A was blackmailing her that he/she would hurt one of us girls if she didn't and then I got a call saying Hanna had been pushed down the stairs, a doesn't make empty threats.

It seemed so long ago since I had last seen her, it was so long ago.. Truly I never thought I would see her again. And I've still kept her appearance secret from the other girls, I had to.. Because of the cruel it/he/she A. Has she been under A's rules since then?

It's ironic really, this time yesterday it was Ali I never thought I was see again.. Today it's Hanna that I know I'm not going to see again. That bitch A loves playing with my emotions and heart, i wish he would just take me and leave the people I love alone.

''Ive been surviving, barley but I'm here and that's all that matters, you just saved my life em, I owe you so much. Were all ok right, all the girls are ok?'' Alison asked concerned.

What do i say? I can't say no I had to choose between you and Hanna and I chose you, because If I didn't choose you you would of died on me.

No I couldn't. I wanted to. But ' A' had sworn me to secrecy.

''As I know yeah. We're all good.'' I fake smile, now lying on the bed next to Ali.

She sits up, drinks another glass of water and lies back next to me, closer this time and she lays her head on my chest. Oh how I have missed this, feeling her soft golden blonde hair, smelling her vanilla scent and the feeling of safety. I couldn't help but feel a little joy mixed in with my sadness.

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I open my eyes and realise that we both must of fell sleep. I look toward the window and see it's still daylight so we can't of been asleep for too long. Ali was still resting her head on my chest, I look down and can't help but smile at her natural beauty, she had almost died a couple of hours ago but she is still utterly beautiful. And then the dread hits me again, Hanna.. I need to know she's at least ok.. I need her back, how can I even live with myself knowing 'A' has taken her.

I quietly slip out of the bed, placing Alison's head onto the pillow and pulling the covers over her, I bet she hasn't had a good nights sleep since the night at the motel, she must be exhausted.

I make my way downstairs and take my phone with me. I know it's a long shot but I dial Hanna's number.. It goes straight to voicemail ''Hi it's Hanna Banana, I'm mostly likely busy shopping or eating so I'll get back to you when I can.'' I let out a little giggle, that stupid voicemail, I remember when she recorded it, it makes me laugh every time I hear it cause it's so 'Hanna'. My laughter quickly turns into quiet sobs as reality of her being gone hits me again. I really don't know what to do. I want to go and look for her but I don't even know where to start. I think of what Hanna would do, she's really good in these situations but all I could think of is she would insist of not thinking of an empty stomach, I giggle again thinking of how much that girl could eat.

I decide to make some food as I realise I bet Ali hasn't eaten in a while, if 'A' had stopped her from drinking, the monster probably stopped her from eating too.

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A/N

Hi all! Sorry I took another break from writing, college kind of took over and life happened but I'm finding time to write again now as I've missed it!
What are your thoughts on how the story is going, I'd like to know your opinions.
What would you like to happen next?
Thanks for reading:)