"Mom"
"Mom.."
"Moommm"
"MOM"
I hear and jerk awake, I look around the dark empty bedroom, it was a dream. Just a dream. I run my hands through my hair and force myself up and out of the bed, I tiredly walk out of the bedroom and across the cold floor to the kitchen, I grab a glass from the cabinet and fill it with water as I rub my tired eyes. As I sip it I pick up a picture frame that's sitting on the cabinet.
"I miss you so much Hunter.." I whisper to the picture as I put my hand over my baby boy in the picture. Hunter died a year ago from a shooting at his preschool. After he died me and Luke got a divorce and I haven't seen him since nor have I made contact. I have nightmares daily about my son calling for me but I can't reach him, I can't help him. These nightmares haunt me. I sit the picture frame back down and pour the rest of the water down the drain and sit the cup in the sink, I walk back to my bedroom and shut the door before climbing back onto the lonely big bed, I pull the covers up to me and sit there in the dark thinking for a few moments, I lay back into the covers and try to fall back asleep, but my thoughts keep me awake. Another long night ahead of me.
**
The next morning I wake up, I turn over onto my side and feel my way around my nightstand trying to find my phone. once I find it, I pull it to me and click it open.
10:30 am
Shit I'm late,
Again.
I jump up rushing around trying to throw work clothes on, brush my teeth, put my makeup on, I grab a banana and head out the door, I get to my car before realizing I forgot my car keys, I rush back inside, grab my keys off of the rack, as I do a picture drops on the floor, I don't worry to pick it up. I rush out the door and finally this time I'm prepared, I get into the car and start the car and drive to work. It's a short drive, but as I'm running late it makes it feel like forever. I keep looking back at forth from the clock to the road. I reach a red stoplight
"Go go go go go. cmon cmon cmon" I say nervously staring at the clock, finally the traffic goes and I eventually get there in one piece. I rush inside and my boss spots me right away.
"3rd time this week you're late.." She says sighing
"I'm so sorry Anne.. I really.. Am sorry" I tell her checking in and then putting on my apron and start to clean up tables
"It's okay Hun, when are you going to see that doctor about your sleep?" She asks as she helps me with another table.
"Tomorrow actually"
"Good, the sooner you get help the sooner you can make more money" she smiles at me and winks, I smile small back and get to work.
"Oh my gosh, Alexis!! Can I please get a picture with you??" I hear a girl screech from behind me, I turn around confused, no one has recognized me since me and Luke split up.
"Uh.. Sure.." I say walking over to her.
"I've missed you, why did you delete your social media's??" She asks getting out her phone.
"Oh you know, just didn't want to hear all the hate that was being said about me and that kind of thing" I tell her and she nods
"That's understandable, us girls have missed you so much!!" She says and holds out the phone, I smile as she snaps a picture, more like 5.
"The girls will be so happy to see you're doing well and alive!" She hugs me and I hug her back.
"Well let them know that I miss everyone and I am doing well" .. Well that wasn't a complete lie.
"I will!! I'll let you get back to work now, bye thank you for the picture!" The girl smiles wide, hugs me one last time and then she leaves.
"She didn't want any coffee with that?" Anne says rolling her eyes.
"You would've thought she wanted some.. Since this is a coffee shop.. And she came in here not knowing I worked here" I laugh and so does Anne.
"Fan girls will be fan girls"
"Honey ain't that the truth"
"Whenever me and Luke used to be in public, it was like.. We couldn't go anywhere without at least one person stopping us asking us for a photo or autograph. It was crazy"
"Do you miss it?"
"Slightly, not going to lie. But I like being a normal girl."
**
Soon, later that day, my shift is over and I head back home, I walk through the apartment door ready to kick off my shoes and sit back and eat some microwaveable dinner, but as I walk through the door I spot something on the floor, I pick it up and stare at it. I didn't even know I had any of these left, it's a picture of me, luke and Hunter. I think about it, not sure if to throw it away or to keep it. Keep it. One more picture of Hunter to remember him. I now finally kick off my shoes and let my hair down, I walk over to the couch in the living room and plop onto it, I pick up my laptop putting it on my lap and turn on the tv for noise, it gets quiet with only me here. I look around on my laptop, checking my email. I think about what the girl said earlier and I slowly type in Twitter.com .. I slowly type in my old username and old password, and bam. I'm on social media again.
"Welcome back, Alexis!" It says at the top and I inhale a big breathe before exhaling it. I look at my mentions
"@lukekorns ... @alexislikescheese is back on Twitter, how do you feel about that??"
"OH MY GOSH ALEXIS IS BACK ON TWITTER I CANT EVEN!! @alexislikescheese"
"Luke and Alexis back together?? #alexisisbackontwitter !! Let's hope!"
I look through bunches of others and almost all of them mention Luke in them. I start to make a tweet
"Hey guys, a little bird told me today that I Was missed on social media, so I thought I'd come back. Hru guys?!"
I tweet it and look at all the replies, I look at the retweets and the favorites,
Luke korns retweeted it.
Luke korns favorited it.
Luke korns mentioned you in a tweet.
"@alexislikescheese , welcome back! ☺️"
Here we go
