Accidentally In Love!

Chapter Fifteen

When we get to Taylor's I get a little nervous. I see people I used to talk to that won't even talk to me now. I see a couple of my exes and then I see her Bernice. I grit my teeth.  I take off my bad crop top and I'm left in my wild swimsuit top that shows just enough boob that even a girl will be like damn. I look at Kian and he looks back. 

"Are you ready for this?" He asks. 

"As ready as I will ever be." 

I park our car and get out. Kian follows. I walk around the bush and the first person to see me is Matt. I ignore all the whispering and dirty looks. I keep my head up as I feel an anxiety attack coming. I get into the house quickly and Taylor runs up to me. He picks me up in a hug. He looks me up and down and drags me to the bathroom. 

He slams the door and points at my thighs. 

"Did you really think I wouldn't see them? Are you kidding me?! Why?! Why are you still..." He says before he sees my wrist. 

I hide my wrist behind my back and he raises an eyebrow. 

"Tori let me see your wrist. Now." He says sternly.  I sigh and show him my wrist. 

All the scars are still new. And there's also fresh cuts. 

"I hate you right now. I love you but I hate you so much for those." Taylor says.

"What is the real reason I'm here? I hate being looked at like I'm a slut." I say. 

"You're not a slut and I wanted to see you. Everyone really misses you they just don't like who you're with." 

"It's cause I'm not with Matt. Cause he cheated and then slapped the shit out of me and then also beat someone up. Oh not to forget that he fucked in the middle of the floor with everyone watching." 

"Why do they want you with Matt?" Taylor asks.

"I don't know. I guess cause when we were together. We were so good together. I stopped cutting and Matt was so happy but I'm not going to him. Bernice is pregnant with his kid and I'm not leaving a kid without a dad." I reply. I open the bathroom door and walk away. I look around for Kian but don't see him so I go outside. 

Cameron looks over at me. I pull off my shorts and shoes. I slide down the slide into the pool and when I float to surface I see Kian with Andrea. His arm is slung over her shoulder. I raise an eyebrow and don't think anything of it. I'm not going to stop him from being friends with one of his exes. I swim around for a little bit and then I get out. I grab my stuff and move by Kian. He smiles at me and Andrea does too. 

"Hey." I say. Kian nods and Andrea does the same. 

They turn back to each other and continue talking. Kian grabs her hand and they walk away. I get a little pissed. Great another guy is going to leave me. I'm going to get my stuff. I get up and run to my car. I drive back to Kian's and pack all my stuff while crying. Kian left his phone. I unlock it and look at his messages. Him and Andrea have been talking for months. I'm so done with relationships. I put all of my stuff in my car and drive back to Taylor's. 

I get out and walk back inside. Kian and Andrea are all over each other. I walk upstairs and go to Taylor's room. I lay down on the bed. I look at the wall and a flashback comes to me. I feel Taylor's hands on me and his lips on mine. I feel a tear fall. I'm so done with everyone breaking my heart. I'm so done. I curl into a ball and continue to cry. I hear the door open and I stay still. The door closes and someone walks to the bed. They lay down. 

"Why are you crying?" A familiar soothing voice says. 

I turn and come face to face with Cameron. 

" Kian. Is not who I thought. I don't understand. Am I really that bad of a person that I can't hold a steady relationship? Why is this always happening to me?" I say crying. 

Cameron wraps his arms around and I stiffen. It's been so long since he's even talked to me let alone hugged me. I pull away. I look at the gorgeous guy staring back at me. Why did I ever leave him? Is he still with Katelyn? How is he? None of these questions will I ask though. 

"I'm fine." I say getting up and wiping my eyes. I open the door and run out. I'm so confused by what is happening. I see everyone and my heart begins to race. My breath begins to quicken and my hands start shaking. I run up to the bathroom. I pull out my razor and start to slice as hard as I can. I can't feel anything. 

I hear hard knocking on the bathroom door but I don't hear.

"Tori!!!Tori!!!" I hear as I pass out. 

Someone picks me up and that's the last thing I remember.