Torn

Chapter 12

AN: So just a few reminders, please take note that it's around the first week of September in this chapter already and I know the AMAs take place in November every year. But please pretend that the timeline is reasonable :)

Also, I'm not that proud of this chapter, so you guys don't have to vote. I'll completely understand. Selena and Alex's performance here is inspired by Ed Sheeran's Thinking Out Loud music video, although with some minor changes/additions to the steps.

However, I don't have talent in dancing, I just tried to describe the routine as best as I could while portraying her emotions. 

Still, I hope you guys could still enjoy it, I love you all! :)

Selena...

With one final release of a shaky breath while straightening out creases on my wardrobe, I place my practiced smile on my face as the door opens and step onto the red carpet. Instantly I am greeted with the flashing of lights and a few people chanting my name. This time my smile is much more at ease as I wave towards the fans and blow kisses to them from time to time.

I proceed with measured steps, scanning the area cautiously noticing the lack of his presence.

I do not regret agreeing on going with them, it's not like I have a choice anyway since I know Cara would be on my case and it's not like I don't want to see him either. I just don't know how I'd talk to him with regards to the recent revelations I've unearthed, especially since I know that it is a matter that I won't be able to keep my mouth shut on.

Taylor didn't plan on attending the event either, since she had other engagements scheduled. Much to my comfort, her condition had considerably improved since I last saw her, though I am admittedly bothered that she won't give me more information about her well-being.

The only thing she's been keen on telling me is that she's okay and I guess I should just take refuge in that, after all the last thing I want is to cause her more discomfort.

I just hope I did the right thing on meeting him tonight.

My head turns to the right as I hear my name being called and I spot Guiliana Rancic motioning for me to come over.

Show time

I walk towards her, smile still in place and place a small kiss to her cheek. "Hello, Guiliana"

"Hello Selena, I must say, you look very lovely." Guiliana says kindly as she eyes my outfit. "Oh thank you. I could say the same about you."

"Oh, always so sweet. Anyway, got any date tonight?"

The smile on my face is quite easy to keep, though I have to admit that it's a struggle to keep my breathing and complexion even as I open my mouth to say the next words "Actually, I am waiting for One Direction."

Guiliana's eyes widened in surprise, causing me to doubt my decision, more so that it follows shortly after that article "Wait a minute, are you dating one of them?"

But before I could answer an Irish voice popped up "No love, we just decided to come as a group" I turned around to be met by the four dashing gentlemen with Nina and Cara perched on Louis and Liam's arms. I know six people arrived, but it's as if my eyes had a mind of its own as they stay trailed on one man alone.

His style is just like usual, but I couldn't comprehend how he could make black so appealing, the only pop of color coming from the gold trimmings on his blazer. My eyes continue to rake down his form as I once again forget about the present. Ironically, it is also him who causes me to regain focus when my gaze travel to his face and I catch his orbs stuck on one particular part of me that causes my cheeks to color – my not so subtle chest.