Condemned

Chapter 1: Jasper

I never really had a great relationship with adulthood. It's never shaped the way I wanted it to, the way I wanted it to when I was a child. But I guess most people settle for less than what they expect from themselves. And I'm one of them. My dreams of being a star football player faded by the time I started my 2nd year of highschool. Although I'm very talented, I just don't have the drive and the dedication that everyone in the league usually has and that was my downfall. Adulthood wasn't that generous. Adulthood was something that I've always been impatient for and was put in front of me like a goal. Mainly because freedom seemed amazing. I was that kid who wanted to stay out when the streetlights lit the block and wanted to live in my own place.  Another reason why I was so impatient to be an adult was because I was eager to be in a relationship with a girl without my parents coddling me. I thought that it would represent the individuality which in a sense is part of growing up, at least to guys, but that came crashing down when she and a guy who was on my basketball team fucked each other. I thought my life was ruined. When I was cheated on, I found out from friends. I heard it from her best friend. And you know what? It was still hard for me to believe. I just didn’t want to accept what had happened because as soon as I accepted it, it became real. And once it became real, so does the pain. My world, as I knew it, crumbled. The ground beneath my feet began to fall away into the abyss, and I was left with nothing to hold on to. I loved this person with all my heart, and it turns out that I was only being delusional. The reality that I created for myself had vanished in an instant, and I felt completely and utterly lost. My entire future had just been rewritten and now I have no idea how the book is going to end. That’s the worst part of being cheated on. It’s not necessarily that my ego got hurt and bruised that rocked my world, it was that the entire future I planned for myself disappeared, and I didn't know where to go from there. Yeah, fuck adulthood. It isn't all that bad though, through all the pain I went through for a few months would have been worse if I didn't have such great friends, Dante and Jax. Who basically wrenched me out of the deep dark hole of depression. They'll always be closest to me no matter the circumstances. Just as a heart can break, it can be repaired and taken care of. Celeste, the girl that sewed my heart whole again. She's been there for me ever since that period of darkness in the summer going into my 3rd year of highschool, I honestly find her to be the most beautiful girl i've ever laid my eyes on and I can finally say I'm happy once again and I couldn't thank her enough.

Waking up wasn't hard for me this morning even though I still felt drained, Celeste and I were out last night at the park late last night, enjoying the ‘freedom’ we had together. It's my second day living on my own with Celeste and honestly it's worth it. Away from commotion and drama which isn't much as it is but living close to family isn't the best option. When I look over I see Celeste sleeping peacefully, because of this I sneak my way out of the room and into the kitchen, our apartment is one-story and has 2 rooms, a bathroom, a living area, a dining area, and a kitchen. For an easy $600 a month. It was an obvious steal. I start to pour myself some cereal when I hear footsteps coming from my room, I turn around only to see Celeste walking through the narrow hallway and into the kitchen with me.

“Whatcha making?” She asked

“Fruity Pebbles, its the shit.”

She proceeds towards me and kisses me on the cheek.

“You're a dork” she chuckled.

I chuckled.

“Whatever you say sweetheart”

“Hey, why don't we invite everyone over this Friday, a get together of some sort.” She asked

She smiled at me with hope.

“That's actually a not so bad idea, Who should we invite?”

“You bring your friends and I'll bring mines, babe.”

I didn't think twice about it, it's only been 3 days since Graduation but I did miss my boys.

“Sounds great.” I replied.

I took my cereal and sat on the couch and turned the TV on. Then proceeded to take my phone out of my pocket and call Dante.

“Hello”

“Yo Dante, what're you doing Friday? Nothing? Good because you're coming to my place we’re gonna get together and have some fun.”

I always knew Dante had nothing better to do than to hang out with his best friends, he usually spends his nights drawing or masturbating, you pick. But I loved the kid to death.

“Hell yeah I'm in motherfucker!” He exclaimed.

“That's the fuckin’ Spirit! I'll catch ya then!”

-Click-

After that I called Jax, and three other of my guy friends who I was also really close to. Damien, who is a self righteous piece of shit asshole that 9 times out of 10 want to strangle. But I think of him as a good friend. The same goes for the other two guys, Andrew and Justin. They were all a bunch of dickheads. But I'd rather be with them than these other idiots I graduated with. Everything was perfectly planned as they had no plans to go anywhere anyway, but it was only Wednesday. I ate my cereal and turned the TV off in the living room. When I got back to my room, Celeste was on the phone with her friends, they were in some sort of multi person call but I payed no attention to the conversation. I picked out clothes, and went into the bathroom. I stripped myself, turned Pandora on blast and jumped on the shower. I literally have nothing to do for two months until my first semester of college starts and I honestly want to do something before I go back to the hell we call school. After my shower I went back in the room and Celeste had been walking in the bathroom as I was walking out. My day was planned out when I looked at her eyes. Movies, fast food and laziness. That's all I seen. So while she took a shower I grabbed my keys and went to my car. I drove to 7-Eleven nearby and grabbed chocolate for Celeste even though I hate it and I grabbed myself a couple snacks for the night, on my way back to the apartment I swung by CVS because they were having a sale on Monsters and without Monsters I couldn't have done half of the essays in my last years of high school. With a deadline induced panic and monster in my blood and veins, I did 5 page papers in 5 short hours. When I got back to the apartment Celeste was already in one of my favorite shirts and a pair of sweats. And her eyes lit up when she saw the chocolate, she loves that shit.

“THANK YOU SOO MUCH BABE!”

“Yeah, yeah. No problem babe”. Tonight and tomorrow are probably going to end up being like this. We got nothing better to do than to be lazy together. Waiting for our friends and shit. I can't wait until Friday..