Lovestruck (A One Direction Fiction)

Chapter 6

Harold

A flashback of the last part of the previous chapter:

"Harold!" I walked away pretending not to listen Leah's voice. I don't care anymore. I just want to die and go to heaven. "Harold!" She repeated again. I still didn't listen. I heard her footsteps getting closer. I can tell that she is running towards me.

And she reached me.

"Are you okay?" She asked me. Little did she know.

"Get away!" I hissed to her. And by the looks on her face, she is now confused on what is happening.

"Why are you angry?" She said to me confused. She didn't care of what I will say.

"Get. The. Heck. Away. Leah." I hissed angrily to her again.

"What happened?" She said that still bugging me ignoring of what I said and now she is sitting right next to me, comforting me.

"None of your business." I hissed. Again. I peeked at her face, still confused on what is really happening.

"Okay, but can you please tell me what happened?" She begged. "I can help." She offered. I can't turn her down. She would still bug me even if I hissed and even if I am angry at her. She would not let this conversation end without an answer. Maybe I should just tell her.

"If you insist, then okay." I said in defeat. I sighed. Now to tell her everything.

End of flashback

"I-I...S-She," I stuttered at my decision. I should just tell her before it's too late.

"Go on. I'm listening." She said while comforting me.

"S-She...I-I found o-out that m-my e-ex g-girlfriend cheated o-on me w-when I w-was still h-her boyf-f-friend." I still stuttered because I was about to cry. But I didn't. I held my emotion just to explain the whole scene about Sheena. She knew about this but she doesn't know the whole story why I was crying. We talked about this at Starbucks and I sounded angry but now I found out the whole story I got angrier and cried. I peeked at her face again. She's still listening. "She had the s#x with two other g-guys that night. I know s-she cheated o-on me but I...I d-didn't know th-that she had sex with two! She c-cheated on me Leah! S-She c-cheated on—" and there it is. I couldn't hold it anymore. I cried. I dont care of what other people will react if the baddest boy of the school cried right in front of them. Luckily, there's no one here in the school park. It's 5:30pm and I think everyone left except for the teachers at this time of day. Why did I cry? She was my first serious girlfriend in my whole life. The others were just some poopy suitors but her, she was special. We were dating for two years and she was the reason why I am still a freshman this year.

"Shhh. Don't cry. Don't cry," she said that while rubbing my shoulders as a sign of comfort, "you're the baddest boy in the campus, right?" She added.

"Yes. B-But sometimes, e-even the b-baddest boy i-in the c-campus will cry, r-right?" Oh god! I feel like a wimp like now. Be manly Harold! God.

"I suppose so." She agreed. "But don't let that feeling or emotion of yours get the hand of you. Put yourself in your own control. Don't let that feeling let you down, in short. You are capable of anything even in your own darkest dilemmas when you can cry in front of everybody. You can cry but please after you cry, try to move on, yeah? Move on from the feeling you are experiencing. Face the inevitable. Anger will weaken you. Try to accept just one defeat. Anger is nature to humans, no? But too much anger can kill people and also if chances are there, it can also kill even yourself. I know I've said this too many times in my speech and this speech sounds confusing for you but, what I'm telling you is, don't let emotions let you down, cry if you want to cry, get angry when you feeling angry, but please not too much. It can kill yourself." She advised. Wow! She did that long speech in front of me. She is a good friend after all. I am great to have a friend like her beside me. Maybe, just maybe, I could be her boyfriend. And that familiarity again, it feels like she is like this before...