4 feb 2016 - 10.45 pm
I can't commit.. I can't full give myself to anyone, I don't have the power or energy to believe that someone could truly want me, for me, not my body or my wild exterior, but for the scared little girl I really am. I'm terrified of wanting someone, feeling a connecting then having a battle with my sub-conscious mind tell me I am unworthy.
'No one could love you stupid girl.'
Why bother, why do you constantly allow yourself to feel these ridiculous emotions that you know won't be reciprocated. He doesn't love you, he doesn't even like you that much. He tolerates you because you have a nice ass. That's all he see, that's all anyone see, the smooth surface, the quirky girl with the nice voluptuous body. They don't see the terrified and destroyed soul that lies beneath. They could never comprehend the hardship that lies within my mind.
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Struggles of the empty soul
Roman d'amourA mixture of emotions and experiences. If you've been through this, you'll know the feeling.
