Messed Up All The Way

Should I?

I get off the bus going to school really nervous hoping nobody see's my scars.

The bell rings and I try to run to my class but I'm so weak. My friends sees me in class and sits down. My two best friends John and Shyan were always so loud. I'm usually all smiling like them but today it was different so they knew it was something wrong. For months now I've been asking them if I should tell the school again about the abuse I've been through lately. My friend John have sort of been through the same thing. Honestly I think he knows me better than anyone, we use to date but then he left me for another girl.

I was so heavy and dizzy because I haven't ate in awhile. I went to the nurse and she gave me some fruit fig bars . Eww gross. Ms. Lindsey looked at my sleeve.

"Minah can you please lift up your sleeve?" I shock my head in disapproval. She sent me to the assistant principal's office.

"Hi Minah I'm going to need you to lift up your sleeve okay." I was so mad and angry at her, myself and the nurse but I showed her the cuts.
"Minah you know that this is serious right we're gonna have to talk to your mother." I had a quick flash back about my parents saying I'm not really depressed. I start yelling and crying so scared. " No Mrs. Holly please I'll talk to her myself and plus I'm not depressed I mean I've been kinda taking my medicine I don't know please just don't tell her I'll talk to my mom!" My mouth just starts blabbing out words begging her not to call.
" Look Minah I'm going to have to call your parents."

30 mins later Mrs.Holly told me my father is there.

" If you go home would you be safe?" I think to myself. Should I? Should I leave home. " Mrs.Holly I think I  would like to go to the hospital." She calls and I'm on my way.