Zoey's story : A Shugo Chara story #2

Chapter 7

( ' Little do you know ' that zoey is in deep pain and is really upset . )

           ☆♡☆ Zoey's POV ☆♡☆

   But as me and girls keep dancing , suddenly uncle yuu calls my name and I quickly run out of room with the girls behind me . I run to the kitchen and I see uncle yuu with his phone , he seems upset . Hmm , I wonder what's wrong . " It's yukari... it's about kairi . " he said . Kairi! Uncle yuu hands me his phone , and I put it up to my ear . I can hear yukari's heavy breathing in the background , she's panicking about something .
" Yukari what's wrong? " I asked with concern in my voice . " Zoey... it's kairi... he's disappeared... he didn't come back... to the apartment... last night . " she panted . He's gone? Something inside me snapped and suddenly I was freaking out and was about to break out in tears . I gave the phone back to uncle yuu , and I suddenly collapsed to the floor on my knees . When my knees hit the hard floor , there was a dull pain in them . But I didn't care about that , what was bothering me was that yesterday wasn't a dream . Kairi had actually said those things last night and I said those things , and it's my fault that he left . " It's all my fault . " I muttered under my breath . Uncle yuu told yukari we'd help find him and that we'd all meet up with the gang to help find him , he then ended the call and bent down to me . " It's all my fault . " I repeated once more . " Zoey what is it? " he asked . " It's all my fault! It's my fault he left! I'm the one to blame! It's my fault! All of it! It's all my fault! " I shouted with frustration . Tears started to run down my cheeks , and I knew that I was crying again . Uncle yuu came over to me , picked up to where I was up on my feet and he hugged me . He rubbed my back as I cried , this is the most I've cried . When dad , grandma , grandpa and mom died I didn't cry as much . But I guess knowing that kairi is missing and that it's my fault , it's making me cry a lot . I can't believe I said those things to him , but I was only telling him what I was feeling . I didn't know it would make him go missing , I'm so horrible! I've got yukari worrying! I don't know how much more pain I can take , I think I might just break if the pain continues . " Hey it's okay zoey , we'll find him . I promise , we'll find him and you two can fix things . " he said . No , it can't be fixed . Even if we do find him , this can't be fixed .
Heartbreak can't be fixed , it just can't be . And I know this for a fact , and it hurts .

               * 30 minutes later *

   Were now at yukari's place with the gang , the only person is missing is kairi . When I first walked in there , I saw yukari . She was crying , and I felt like crying again . I ran up to her and hugged her , she hugged me back .
She kept crying , but I held in my tears . " I'm sorry yukari , it's my fault he didn't come back . You can be made at me all you want , I won't care . " I said . " I'm not mad zoey , besides I can't be mad at you . " she sobbed . After I pulled back , uncle yuu went over to her and tried cheering her up . I went over to amu and the others , I feel like I'm gonna cry . Amu looked at me , and she faintly smiled . I couldn't smile , this isn't a happy time right now . " It's gonna be okay zoey , we'll find him . " amu said . " She's right you know , but not always . " ikuto said . Amu got irritated but didn't say anything . " Don't listen to my brother . " utua said as she pointed at ikuto .
" Were here for you zoey . " rima said . " We got your back! " kukaki said .
" We'll find him , so don't worry . " tadase said . I almost smiled , almost . I don't think I should smile right now , cause if I do then tears will just come out . And I don't want to cry again , even though I feel like it . I nodded , and we all looked for clues that kairi might have left to where he might have went . I'm standing in front of his bedroom door , should I go in? I've been in here with him a million times before , but not it's different . He's not here , so now I'm afraid . My hand reaches for the door nob , and as I place my hand on it and get ready to turn it , I pull it back . Why am I so afraid? I don't know . Maybe I'm just finally realizing the fact that he's actually gone? I don't know . Am i? Maybe . Suddenly amu comes up next to me , and she smiles at me . " Be confident , and don't loose it . " she said . So I opened the door , and walked in with amu next to me . I looked at his room , it's the same . Except for there's a few papers on his bed , but otherwise it looks all the same as the last I was here . I walked to his dresser , and I saw some pictures . There was one of me and him at age 14 , there was a one of all of us together with the gang , then there's one of us at 15 , there's one of him and yukari , there's a picture of me and him on our first christmas together . I look at mirror , and I find a picture of us that we took at the beach . I pick it from the mirror , and I look at it . He was smiling and so was I , we were holding hands and we were really happy . I felt tears building up in my eyes , I miss him so much . Amu nudges me on the shoulder , and hands me a piece of paper . " I found this on his bed . " she said . I looked at it , it was a note . And it said my name , it's a note for me .

   * Note - not finished yet *

        Zoey ,

     Your an amazing girl and I couldn't have asked for a better girlfriend . I love you till the sun dies down and till the moon rises up , I think of you before I fall asleep and the first thing I think of in the morning . Being with you makes me so happy , you've helped me become a better me . Your so radiant and amazing that I can't come up with words to tell you how beautiful you look with or without makeup , or how beautiful you look before bed and in the morning when you first wakeup .
I know we've gone through some tough times during the wonderful 2 years , but can make it through . We can get through whatever mother nature throws at us , and that's a promise . I

     * Note - not finished yet - ends *

  He's not finished with the note yet , but it's amazing . And reading it while he's gone , it makes my heart ache . Tears start streaming and I fall to my knees again , sadness just takes over my body and it hurts . " Zoey! " amu gasped as I fell to my knees . She bent down to me , and looked at me .
" Guys! " amu shouted for everyone .
Amu helped me up , and we walked out of kairi's room and to the livingroom . I sat on the couch and just continued to look at the note over and over again , but the tears kept coming . Everyone surrounded me , utua sat on the left side of me and amu sat on the right side of me . Rima sat next to amu , but everyone else surrounded us . " It hurts... " I trailed off . " What hurts? " rima asked . Utua took the note from me , and I bet she read it . " Oh . " she gasped . She then passed it to rima , rima read it and then the note was passed for the others to read . Amu put her arm around my shoulders and I layed my head on her right shoulder . " I'm so sorry that this happened zoey . " she said . " It's gonna be okay , we'll find him . " utua said . " Were here for you , we always are . " rima said . " It hurts so much... " I trialed off again . Soon yukari shooed everyone into the kitchen , so now it's me and the girls .
  " What hurts zoey? " amu asked .
" My heart... it hurts.... it feels like... it's... gonna break . " I said . My tears went down to my cheeks , and some fell onto my hands . " Were here for you zoey . " utua said . " Things will get better . " rima said . " Were gonna do all we can to make things right again , you'll be smiling again . " amu said . " Yeah we're gonna fix this . " utua said . " Heroes of japan unite! " rima said . I laughed a little , rima could always make me laugh . Maybe we can fix things after all , can we?