Chapter 19
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"BROOKE" my mams voice echoed out of the house, yet again she was calling me through the speaker. I don't think she actually realised that there was no need to shout like I could clearly hear her.
I chucked my book that was on my lap onto my bed and made my way downstairs. School was started to get on top of me a bit. So every opportunity I had I made sure I was going over my notes.
It was hard, being a 'model' and 'blogger' and 'internet celebrity' when you're in the last year of school. I mean it was already hard enough without having all this shit on top of it. I'm not complaining though...well yeah maybe I am a little bit but come on its human nature to complain about life.
I guess I was doing okay though, the majority of the time I was traveling so I just took my books and notes with me so I could do it then, it made my life A LOT easier.
As I made my way downstairs I walked into my mothers office-knowing she would be there because well let's face it- she was always in there. I don't see why though, well not at the minute anyway, she had just won a massive chase in work..a very public case too so she no doubt had a brilliant sum of money for it. Good for her I say, she works so hard for her money so she deserves every single bit of it.
"Hi" I said causally I popped my head around the corner, looking into the room as I saw her on her Apple laptop.
It took her a second as she finally tore her fade away from the screen, glancing in my direction letting me know she knew I was there.
"Hunny" she began, swirling around on her chair, turning to face me. Okay well this made me uncomfortable, her facial expression was normally soft, right now it really wasn't soft. I couldn't make out what it was a look of, almost sympathy.
I didn't say anything, only nodded my head slightly, telling her to carry on with what she was going to say. My eyebrows frowned slightly as I tried to read her. Read her, how stupid? She was a lawyer..she was pretty damn hard to read. She had one of the best pocker faces ever yet I stilled tried to do it every single time.
"I really don't want to tell you this but.. hunny I honestly am so angry about this bu-" she was nervous, she always rambled when she was nervous.
"Spit it out mam!" I cut off her rambling as I now stood up straight, tightening up my posture. It was starting to worry me on what she was going on about.
"Your 'Nan'...no Sandy...she doesn't want to see you hunny, when you go back over to the UK on the weekend, she doesn't want you to go to the house. " my mam looked at me with such sympathy in her eyes.
"Why" I said almost immediately, my voice cracking as I spoke. I was heartbroken, back when me and my mam...and dad lived together in the UK me and my Nan were so close! Everyday after school I would go around to her house and we would sit around the living room and talk.
She doesn't want to talk to me? She doesn't want to see me? I am her granddaughter and I have done absolutely nothing wrong.
"Your father...she thinks I ruined the relationship babe, she thinks I pushed your father towards cheating. She's taking it out on you also and it's not fair. I am absolutely livid but honestly hunny there is no need to have her in your life if she doesn't want to be there." She finally finished as I simply nodded my head.
"I agree." I simply stated. I then took a deep breath and walked away, walking back up to my room. I wanted to be by myself, I was devastated. I mean my own nan doesn't want to know me because of my fathers mistakes. Why on earth would she take that out on me? To say it hurt was an understatement.
I guess when me and Justin go out there we will be just seeing my mothers side of the family, that hurt but it was okay, i'm not going to beg them to be in my life, if they don't want to be there then tough for them.
