Me and my Benj

Chapter 25

Mitch's POV

I walked into Jareds to find a ring. And engagement ring. When we had gotten engaged we never actually got the ring. I can't live without Michaela. I just can't. She's my everything. She's everything I've ever wanted. I didn't want to leave her. But I also didn't want to live with Vikk constantly kissing my fiancé. I just couldn't. I thought I would like this much better than the hurt I felt whenever he kissed her. But I was wrong. I need to let her know that.

I finally picked out the ring. I wanted her to love it. It's got a blue sapphire in the middle. I know blues her favorite color.

I purchased it and left. I was on my way to Michaela's when I got the call.

"Is this Mitchell?" They asked.

"Yeah who is this?" I asked curiously.

"This is the hospital," the voice said, "we have a Michaela here. She's been shot."

This is when I broke down. I couldn't keep it in. I began sobbing uncontrollably.

"By who?" I asked. "Who shot her."

"Herself."

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When I got to the hospital I immediately ran to the front desk.

I told the lady who I was and who I was here for and she showed me to the room. I ran in there and immediately held her hand.

Her eyes slowly opened.

"Mitch?" She ask weakly.

"Yeah baby," I say tears threatening to spill out of my eyes. "It's me."

She smiled. It wasn't her normal smile. This one was full of pain. She started to cry.

"What's wrong baby?" I asked wiping a tear from her eye.

"Nothing. Yet everything." She said. "You're here. And that's great. But why you're here. Not so much." She said laughing a little.

"Here." I said pulling the ring out of my pocket. "Will you please be mine again? Forever this time?"

She smiled at me and nodded her head.

"Of course." She said.

I slipped the ring onto her ring finger and kissed her hand.

"I'll be here whenever you need me." I said.

"I know you will." She said closing her eyes and drifting to sleep.

I stayed with her that night. I held her hand and slept in the chair next to the bed.

I woke up to the sound of the nurse walking into the room to bring Michaela breakfast.

I looked over at Michaela and saw she was still sleeping and so did the nurse.

"I'll just come back later." He said walking out of the room with the tray. I went back to sleep too.

I was awoken again by the sound of coughing. I looked up to see Michaela. She was bleeding out of her head and was coughing up blood.

"HELP!" I screamed. "I NEED A DOCTOR! HELP!" A nurse came rushing in and pushed me out of the room.

"Please back up sir." He said as he pushed me out. "We'll do everything we can. A doctor is on her way."

I stood out in the hallway listening to what they were doing and watching through the doorway. Michaela started trembling uncontrollably.

"She's having a seizure." One of the nurses screamed.

"We need a doctor now!"  The other one screamed.

The doctor came up and she moved me out of the way and closed the door. All I could hear was the constant medical terms coming from the doctors but I couldn't understand what they were saying. The only thing in there I could hear, was the sound of the monitor beeping steady and then speeding up. Then the beeping stopped. It was a sound I was hoping I'd never hear. The flat beep of the machine signaled one thing I hoped I'd never live to see.

Michaela's dead.

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It's been three weeks since her death. I hate that word. Death. It's such a sad word. Nothing good can ever come out of it. Today was the day of her funeral. All her family was there. There was also the boys from Team Crafted and The Pack. Including Vikk. We all took it pretty hard. We would never cry in public but here it was impossible to keep in.

It was an open casket funeral. I couldn't go up there. I couldn't see her. But I had to.

I walked over to the casket and saw her. She was so beautiful. So peaceful.

"Hi baby." I said to her. "I miss you. I'll join you someday though. It can't be soon though. I know you wouldn't want that." I continue. "I just wanted to say I'll be okay. At least I'll try. I don't think I'll ever fall in love again. I know you would want me to. But I don't think I can. You were my epic love. You still are. I love you so much my baby girl. But I know you're happy now. You were probably in so much pain at the hospital. And now you have your mom. Man I wish I could have met her. She raised such an amazing person. My best friend. My lover. My everything.

After I said that I couldn't help but burst into tears. I broke down sobbing. I kissed the casket.

"I love you." I say. "I never said it enough. I wish I had. I just thought I would have more time to. I wish I had more time. I'm sorry baby. I'm so so sorry." I looked down at her and saw something shiny. I looked at what it was. It was her ring. This made me sob even more. I was barely able to hold the sobs in. The guys all had to pull me away to console me.

I had to give a speech. I wrote one. I walked up to the podium and pulled the crumpled of piece of paper out of my pocket.

"Hi everyone." I started. "Most of you don't know me but I'm Mitchell Hughes. I'm actually Michaela's fiancé." Was. I reminded myself. I was Michaela's fiancé. "She was my everything. She was the world. She made my day just by smiling." I continued. "I just can't believe she's gone. But she'll be okay. She's with her mother now. She's no longer in the pain she was at the hospital. While there, it was the only time I had seen a day where she didn't smile. At least once. I know I'll never get to grow old with her like I planned and I hate that. But at least I got to know her. She'll always be with me. Through all the bad moment I have in my life, all I have to do is think of her smile. Even though I'll never see it again in person, I'll never forget it." I said. Then I looked up and said. "I love you Michaela. Always and forever."

I left the podium and went back over to her casket. The funeral just ended so everyone started leaving to go to the cemetery. But I wasn't leaving her not just yet. I wanted one last moment alone with her.

"Hi baby." I said. "I know I keep talking to you. But I never wanna stop. Ever since the day I met you, I dreamt of the day where we got married. I always knew I'd be with you until death do us part. I just never thought it would be so soon. And I'll live the rest of my life regretting leaving you. I'll live thinking of the life we could of had. It's gone now. I really will try to find someone else. But they'll never compare to you. You're my best friend. My lover. My life. My everything. Goodbye baby. I love you."