i know i said i didn't want to kill myself but i lied. I want to.
I've never wanted anything more than this in my life. I said that so maybe i could coax myself into not wanting to do it.
it didn't work.
i'm going to do it. I'm going to kill myself.
I plan on doing it September 15th (the same day my brother died). i haven't planned how but i'm gonna do it.I want to hang myself. It seems the most paimful way i could do it.
No one reads this book so no one will know anyways.
bye💞
