Bad Girl (Hikaru x Reader OHSHC)

~Chapter 5~

Time Skip~

It's been a week since I first went to the host club. I go every afternoon for Haruhi. Currently, I am in the host club and a girl is insulting Tamaki by calling him a phony.

She is saying that she is Kyoya's fiancé. I think her name was Renge. She is fanning over things that Kyoya doesn't actually do.

"This is too confusing." I say as Kyoya goes into explanation.

"From now on, I'm going to be the manager of this host club!" Renge says. I raise my eyebrow. "What?" I ask. She ignores me.

Time Skip to next day~

I'm at the host club again and Tamaki is going on about it being good to have Renge as a manager because she would bring out Haruhi's feminine side.

I stare in confusion. "What the fuck is going on lately?" I ask. No one responds.

Renge comes in and brings cookies. And they are burned. Honey tries to eat one and Mori says its bad for him. This leads to Renge chasing them.

"They aren't that bad at all. They've got a good flavor to them." Haruhi says. I grab one and try it myself. I shrug. "Yeah. It isn't terrible." Then Hikaru and Koaru come up and harass Haruhi. Tamaki flips out. "You know you could've just told me and I would've wiped it off." Haruhi says to the twins. I sigh and look around. "Where did Renge go?" I ask. Everyone ignores me... Again. I sigh. I see Renge looking at us with a deep look on her face. 'What is she thinking about?' I wonder.

"All of your characters except for Kyoya are lukewarm!!" Renge bursts out, gaining everybody's attention. "Each of you needs to have some sort of dark side! Girls are vulnerable to handsome young men who are troubled! If you keep carrying on like this, it's only a matter of time before the girls get tired of you and stop coming all together! Are you trying to ruin my precious Kyoya's business?! As your manager, it's my duty to change your character background!" She points to Honey.

"If all you are is cute inside and outside then you're no different than a baby! From now on, you are the baby-faced thug!! And Mori-senpai you are his childhood friend flunkie! The twins while be basketball players who lives in their own world! Haruhi, you're an honor student who's constantly being bullied. Tamaki, you are the school idol who is adored for his good looks but you actually have a minority complex that you're hiding from the world, the lonely prince!" Then she points to me. I stare at her confused. "You are the one who feels no one understands her and is constantly ignored whenever you try to get their attention." I sigh. How legit can this woman get without even knowing? But I'm not even part of the host club. "And Kyoya, you are perfect just the way you are!"

Time Skip~

I watch as everyone starts to film their parts. And I realize something. They could never understand the true depth of their parts. They would never understand the sorrow and pain that actually happens to people who are like this because they have never had to feel this way. They never will. They are all just fakers who like to seduce girls with their looks.

After Honey flips out and starts to apologize to Haruhi, everyone gets a break. I just sit on the side and watch as everyone interacts with each other. Even though Renge insisted on giving me a 'dark side' she still didn't remember to even involve me in the movie or anything that the club was doing. Yet she always insists that I come. Why? Why does everyone seem to do this to me? I sigh and continue to watch as they bring in the sons of duded in the mafia. Renge gets shoved by them and Haruhi protects her from getting shoved into the wall. My eyes widen and I run over. Haruhi talks with Renge about the dudes being right. I scoff and punch one of the dudes in the face. "What the hell do you think you are doing?" He yells at me. "I could ask the same exact thing. Why the hell do you think you can come over here and do that to someone? It isn't right." I say and back up. Then Tamaki comes around the corner and finds Haruhi crying. He pushes the dude I just punched against the wall and questions him about who made Haruhi cry. I sigh. "I should just forget it. I don't understand why I get involved anyway." I mutter to myself before walking away. I walk far enough into the trees that were used during filming and punched one. "FUCK!!" I yell as I grip my now injured hand in my other.

I hear glass shattering in the distance. It came from where the hosts were. I sigh. I shouldn't go over there. I would just get ignored again. I fall to my knees and punch the ground with my uninjured hand. I feel tears fall down my face as I stare at the ground hugging my injured hand to my chest. The blood is probably getting everywhere but I don't care. I sigh and walk back towards the area. Once I reach it, I keep my distance from everyone and watch.

Haruhi was talking to Renge about getting to know someone.

Time Skip~

All of the host club's fangirls were talking about them buying the film that the host club made. I sigh as I watch from the back of the room like every other day. My hand is in a cast because, apparently, I shouldn't have gone and punched a tree so hard. My hand was bleeding a lot that day after I did that. Oh well. All I know now is that I have to keep it on for who knows how long and that the host club hasn't even noticed that I got a cast. Not even Haruhi. I sighed.

I guess my life isn't getting better. Then Haruhi came up to me. "Hey (Y/N)!! Why don't you come join us?" She asks. I shake my head. She tilts her head in confusion and asks why. I lift up my hand in the cast and her eyes widen. "When did that happen?" She asks in shock. I glare at her. "The day you all filmed the movie." I grumble to her. Her eyes widen even more. "What? Why? How'd it happen?" She asks. I chuckle dryly. "So now you care about what happens to me? After I actually showed you what happened to me? Now your actually paying attention to me and not that idiotic host club for once? Why? Did they argue with you or something? What happened that could have possibly made you want to come over and talk to me? You never seemed to wanted to have talked to me in the past." I say to her. "What are you talking about (Y/N)? I would never--" I cut her off. "Don't act dumb with me!!" I yell. Everyone goes silent but I really don't care right now. "How could you not know? Oh yeah I know! Because you ignore me all of the fucking time! Every single one of you ignores me! It's always Haruhi this and Haruhi that! But no one ever seems to care about what I wanted or how I felt! No one even seemed to remember I existed! I sat alone every day watching as you all interacted and had fun with each other but nobody seemed to remember to involve me once! I thought you wanted to fix our relationship Haruhi? But it seems like you just want to show off that you have friends, people who you can rely on. Something I have never had because I have been fucking feared or ignored for most of my life! Even when we were kids, mom always liked you better! Even after mom died, dad always wanted to make you happy again! Make sure you were okay! And I just watched from the sidelines! You ask me why I'm such a jerk to everyone all the time and why I don't try to make friends! Well this is the exact reason why! Everyone chooses you over me! I was the unimportant twin! I was the one that nobody seemed to give a fuck about! Even now, everyone was too busy making sure you were okay that nobody knew that I was dying inside! Nobody knew that I was drowning in my own sorrow and despair and loneliness! Nobody knew that I broke my hand! You wanna know why now? Because I fucking punched a tree! Because everything I seemed to do was unimportant compared to what you did. Nobody seems to realize that I try so fucking hard to gain people's attention but they all ignore me! Why not tell you everything else that I keep hidden and locked up because nobody seems to care about what I want! I cry myself to sleep every fucking night! Why do you think I didn't want to come here? Because everybody made fun of me in middle school! Everyone bullied me! They said things like 'You'll never be as good as Haruhi!' 'Why are you even related to her?'. Oh and don't forget the worst one, that was repeated to me over and over again. 'Why don't you just disappear? Nobody would care anyway. Just kill yourself because you would be doing everyone a favor.' Oh and about two weeks ago, I was harassed on the rooftop because I hung out with the host club! Because I hung out with you! Just because I was related to you, I was always put second. Apparently your needs come before my own! I bet you probably didn't notice but a few years ago I ran away from home! But I came back because I thought that you and dad would miss me. But you gusy just carried on and ignored me like I didn't even leave!" By now tears were streaming down my face. "I hate myself everyday because I can't be as good as you. I can't be as pretty as you. I can't be as funny as you. I can't even be as nice as you." I say as I come to a stop on my little breakdown.

"(Y/N)..." Haruhi mutters as she tries to come closer to me. "Don't come near me!" I yell at her. I push past her and the hosts and run away. I run out of the school, I run past the gates and I just continue running. I run until I realize that I don't know where I am anymore. It looks like I'm in a forest because of all of the trees nearby. I fall to my knees with my back against one and start to cry again. "Why does this always happen to me? Why do I have to be the one to burden the pain?" I ask myself as I sob.