Sorry not sorry-lrh

Chapter-1

(This is mostly in Luke's pov. I'll tell you if it's not) this my be triggering
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"I'm sick of your constant blabbing Luke!! Your always talking and it's annoying the shit out of me!" She screamed at me
"I'm sorry...." I said barely over a whisper
"I don't care if your sorry or not Luke!! I don't even care about you anymore!!" She screamed again. I felt a pain in my chest, hearing her say that made my heart ache tears pricked my eyes as she got her things and slammed my apartment door.
"No, no, no, no, no!!!!!" I yelled pulling at my hair I was a mess. Nothing felt right anymore. I felt lonely, I felt unwanted, and I felt worthless. I pulled my bracelets off my arms and running to the bathroom and dumped my toothbrush holder and sighed in relief as three blades fell out. I grabbed one bringing it close to my wrist and dragging it across the skin and sighed as I felt blood drip from my arms down onto my bathroom counter. I did it a few more times until I felt satisfied. I put the blades back and wrapped my arms in bandages.
"Mate!?" Someone called "Bro I got us some games and pizza!" Michael it was Michael
"Hold on Mike!" I shouted pulling my long sleeved shirt down my arms as I walked out.
"Hey..." I said my voice low and hoarse I tried sounding happy but that failed as tears started brimming my eyes
"Hey Luke what's wrong?" Michael asked me
I shook my head bringing my hands to my face crying in them as I laid in the couch. Michael rubbed my back as I cried into his chest hugging him tightly
"Shhh it's gonna be okay Lukey your gonna be okay...." He said
"Hey guys we're ho-" Calum couldn't even finish as he saw me crying and hugging Michael to death. Ashton saw me too but he was to focused on my wrist to say anything instead he just picked me up and took me to my room. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer.
"Luke," he sighed "tell me what's wrong. Why did you do," he looked at my bandaged arms again before veering his gaze back to meet my eyes "that....You were doing so good Lukey so good and then you go and cut?? Tell me what happened...please." Ashton begged as I stared into his beautiful hazel eyes. I just shook my head as he begged more. Normally I was more open to Ashton and me not telling him what happened started to frustrate him. He sighed "Tell me when your ready Luke.....but don't do anything you'll regret."  I simply nodded as he left my room. I laid down on my bed darkness filling my eyes as I went to sleep.