Just for you

Bad habait

The next semester was quite lonely, as tho by habit, I'd still wait to see him, and then it'd hit me he's not here, I'd look for him, and then I'd realize, he is gone... And it's stupid but... but I couldn't believe that, this is it, that this is how far it gets, I won't see him any more, won't ever talk to him, or at least listen to him. And it was just too much, because when I get attached to a person, it's impossible for me to forget about them.
But days went on and on, and I finally learned how to at least somehow live without him. And as the stupid person I am, I met someone else, and I let that someone in. And obviously fell in love. Let's call this guy, Jeremy. So Jeremy was quite of an interesting individual, he wasn't normal type of guy. And, well it was quite easy talking to him. I loved it, he made me happy, very happy. Made me forget about the other guy, and it really helped.
But, around me things, people, and happiness don't last long. At the end of 7th grade everything seemed great, so many plans, so much fun. Until, at the end of the summer, my dad decided to move.
So... started my 8th grade trying to find a ways to still be able to communicate with him finally got a phone. And we started talking, I didn't want to tell him anything until I knew for sure. 2 months into 8th grade everything shattered. One part because of me moving ninety-nine parts, because of my mistakes, again....
I only honestly realized I liked him at the end of the summer so when I got a phone and could talk to him I really wanted to tell him how I fell. I did, a million times, but I was too scared to face the truth that right after saying "I love you" I said that it was a joke. No one would get hurt, or so I thought. Well after I moved 2 weeks later or so, I finally got the courage to tell him. I don't quite know what I did wrong this time but... when I finally said how I feel. In return all I got was, "I hate you, you mean nothing to me."
And trust me when I say, this wasn't the first time I heard this phrase, tho it was the most painful time. I planned out everything. I had it all down, I wouldn't be alive till the next day, I wouldn't be here, but, someone saved me... I don't quite know if I should be happy or sad that I met this guy, he was Jeremy's older brother.