"Never let them take you alive"

Chapter three

I awoke to the sound of a huge bang. I realised something was wrong when I heard loud stomps coming up the stairs, down the hallway, and towards my room. I quickly grabbed a shirt  the first one I saw, jeans, and ran to get my phone off the charger. I knew what that sounded like, a pissed off dad and I didn't want to handle that shit this early in the morning.  I knew it and I had too many bruises from Jacob and Matt I don't need anymore. Why does everyone think I'm their rag doll. "I have feelings too."

I heard a loud voice scream outside my door.

Along with multiple bangs on it.

It's 4 in the fucking morning I grumble under my breath making sure my 'father' doesn't hear.  No one understands..
I hear my dad walk away, "finally" as I laid back down I heard something outside my door and break.  "Oh no-" I felt instant pain in my jaw, my dads fist connected up with my jaw, and I've never ever felt more pain; not even the worst beating I've got before. It hurt worse then getting kicked in the dick, but that's probably because I'm used to it. I knew he wouldn't stop so I punched him hard in the gut making my fists pop. I heard a grunt then another punch connected and hit me hard in the face. Then another and he went on.

I tried to stop him, pushing him at every moment I had the chance to. I felt blood run down my nose and out my mouth. As soon and he stopped I jumped back, shirt bloody, me crying. You'd think parents would care. "where is she?!" He yelled pulling me in by my shirt to his face. His breath smelt like beer. He was drunk and crazy of fucking course. "Who i-i don't know" I tried saying but just ended up balling my eyes out.  "WHERE THE FUCK IS LINDA!?" He spat in my face making me wince like a pussy.  God I hate him bastard. "I don't know I-I haven't talked to her all day and night." Sometimes I have these thoughts, maybe I should just end it all.

He let my shirt down and looked around the room then got up and left.

I just laid down and slept.
There was no way I was going to school. My face is still swore and I don't need more beatings there, so instead I slept till about 2:50 pm. I got up still in my bloody clothes and went downstairs to see if there was food. Surprisingly I was hungry and I could still taste my blood in my mouth. I walked toward the kitchen making sure no one was home as I made my way to the fridge.

There was no food as always. All whale.

I plugged my iPod into the speaker in the living room and played my playlist for when I am pissed. I wouldn't have been surprised if the neighbours didn't complain, the music was really loud. I didn't even realise it was 4 until I saw a bus drive pass my house. I quickly looked at my phone and saw my alarm didn't go off. Great.

I ran up stairs and brushed my teeth and hair then quickly grabbed old converses and my iPod. I didn't bother locking my house and ran towards the mall. My first day at my new job and I'm already late. "How pathetic I am"

I finally made it four minutes before I was late. I stopped outside to catch my breathe and then quickly walked in. "On time, but you could've been early you know." Gerard said looking up smiling. That smile quickly faded when he saw my face and shirt. "Shit" I said not thinking and watching his eyes widen. I forgot to try to fix my face and change my shirt great. "Who who did this?" Gerard asked with pain and fury in his eyes. I couldn't fight him and right then it all hit me. Why'd I have to be such a girl sometimes. "My my dad. He always does this and other people do" "I can't take it anymore Gee I can't" I said tears coming down my eyes. I started walking away.

He stopped me and hugged me so tight and close I felt like he was the world. I closed my eyes and felt like with him I could do anything, but when he pulled back I felt the light leave, and I needed it. I wanted it. "Everything's gonna be okay Frankie I promise you." Gerard looked so sincere. I wanted to melt into his arms. "Okay " I started feeling better now that I was around Gerard. "You can have one of the shirts in the store." "It's on me okay?" Gerard was too kind but I just nodded and managed to smile. He ran to the back as I went and looked for a shirt. I grabbed a nirvana shirt and slipped it on. When Gerard came back he had an rag, and handed it to me. "Well are you gonna stand there and stare at it?" He said laughing to himself. "No but why do I need this?" He rolled his eyes smiling and taking the rag out of my hands. He started cleaning my face. "Geesus cut that out" I said flapping my hands at his 'rag'
"Haha you look dead, at least let me help you"
"Okay" I said quietly. I was truly embarrassed to tell someone about the beating sessions. It's pathetic, I'm pathetic.

The rest of the day we did everything but nothing at the same time. We mostly worked but other than that we just got caught up talking about deep shit. It was truly easy to talk to Gerard. And every minute every second I felt myself falling for Gerard more and more. He was just amazing. It was getting darker, and darker, and since it's the weekend were open till 10. And there was no way I was going home anyways so it was fine with me. I had just finished putting more posters out when someone came in the store. I turned around to see a girl. She had black long hair and piercings, She wore a band shirt black skinny jeans, and an black beanie.

I saw Gerard look up and give her the dirtiest look ever. "What are you doing here?"
I quickly hid myself behind clothes, I hoped Gerard hadn't seen me before I came back into the room.
"I came to see you." The woman said fiercely.
"Lindsay" Gerard said sighing. "Can we talk outside?" I quickly tried to walk past them behind the clothes but They saw me. "I -I uh sorry" "I'll leave you two" I said glancing up slightly. Gerard simply gave me a faint smile and then looked at Lindsay. Lindsay looked pissed to see me. Never leaving my eyes. "No Frankie it's fine you can stay, she was just leaving." Gerard said as he pushed Lindsay out the door. I heard Lindsay say she was sorry and she wanted forgiveness. When Gerard came back with tears I knew she'd hurt him.

I ran to him and hugged him like he did but harder, tighter. And there it was, the light, the thing I needed. What I wanted. We sat on the floor holding each other tightly for about 30 minutes. By then it was time to close. "Gerard?" "I uh have a question" I asked looking at him from the other side of the counter. "Yes?" "What"
"Well uh can I sleep in the store tonight?" "I don't need a blanket and I'll just sleep on the floor."
"No Frankie."
"Why?"
"Cause that's stupid I'm not letting you sleep on the floor."
"You can come to my place okay?" "I can't have you at your house anyways that's just bullshit." "You deserve so much more Frankie."
"No Gerard." "I don't deserve anything"
"Yes you do" but before i could argue Gerard's lips were against mine.
It was an sensation. Sparks flew through my body. I felt it in my legs, hips, everything. He kissed me slowly letting it last, making it sweet. He passionately kissed me putting a hand on the back of my neck and another around my waist. Slowly lifting me and pushing me against a wall. He slowly put his lips back on mine and we went on, lips locked, hips hard on me.

As if I could take anymore Lindsay walked in.