Will the fear stay or go?

Chapter 11 Saturday

Today is the day me and Sen are going out and having lunch. I don't want to go because what if I break down again. Or something else bad happens. I give out a big sigh. "Let's just get this over with. I don't really feel good today." I say to myself. I grab what I need and go. I look at my phone and see where Sen's house is. She wrote it on a piece of paper before leaving my house on day, I think. I am only a few doors away from her house and I see her in a really bright pink shirt. Oh my dear christmas balls I thought to myself and putting my hand on my face. You could have picked any color to wear, why pink? I think to myself looking down at my feet think of my choice to go have lunch with Sen. Oh well I am just hoping that where ever we are going to it won't be packed with people. I walked up to Sen and she has a big smile/mischievous grin on her face. I get a little in easy since the last time we went out I had a break down. "Sen what's with that smile?" I ask her with an uneasy tone. "What, what's wrong with my smile?" "Well the last time we went out you had the same smile and it didn't go well." I say to her. She just smiles softly like it will be ok kind of smile. "It's ok Fumi I promise that it won't be that bad." "Ok Sen what ever you say." We start to walk out to wherever we were going. I am just following her, she is the one that asked me to come so. We walk for about 5 minutes and we get to this little coffee shop. It looked decent, not that big but not that small either. The place looked clean which was good. I open the with my gloves on, of course, and I let Sen lead the way. She heads for the counter and ask the lady something and she shakes her head. So Sen asks her something else and we are seated in no time. "Hey Sen, what did you ask that lady?" "Oh, it was nothing important I promise." I just shrugged it off like it was nothing. Only 5 minutes passed and I see a familiar figure walking into the door. God damn it Sen. So this is why you wanted to bring me here. I though annoyed. The lady at the counter points to us and he walks this way. When he gets to the table I am guessing he will sit right in front of my and sure enough he does. He is about to sit down and when he does I stand up. "Sen why is he here?!" I say with an annoyed tone. "Well Leo called one day last week and he wanted to have a little chat over a meal. I hope that is ok." She says with a nervous smile. I can't blame her she wants to help me and she will do anything that would help. I sit back down and nod my head. "So what is it that you wanted to talk about Leo?" I say not making any eye contact at all. "Well I wanted to say first of all that I may have made a really bad first impression. So I wanted to get to know you better. So let me just say that hello, my name is Leo Philip and it is a pleasure to meet you." He says with a gentle grin and a hand stretched out for a nice handshake. I hesitantly reach out to meet the hand. Then he goes forward and meets it for me. I jump back as our hands meet and our hands shake until he sees that I let some tension out of my shoulders. Once that is over with we start to talk about why and how I got Mysophobia and my life story basically. When I try and get some information in to Leo's life he would change the subject back to me. "That is interesting and so what I think what we can do is a daily routine of meeting here and go somewhere were we can progress on your Mysophobia, is that ok?" Leo says with a hand on his chin thinking. I nod in response. "Ok first things first, you need to take of thought gloves." I stare at Leo in disbelief. Did he really just ask me that. I though to myself. "W-why would I have to do t-that for?!" I say with a shaking voice. "Will for starting your treatment you need to stop wearing your gloves and start to get use to touching normally with your hands. (And for the ones who have a mind like my friends don't think about what I just wrote like that.) I hesitate and look over to Sen. She has thoughts eyes of a puppy trying to get food. I guess I should it would be good for me and it would get Sen off my back. I hesitantly take off one glove and put it on the table and I take off the other soon after. I push them to Leo and he smiles gently. "Thank you for your corporation, and I will need the ones at your house as well. So after this we will walk to your house and get them all ok?" I widen my eyes and look down. I nod my head slowly in sadness. "Don't worry Fumi, this is a good thing. We will get you over your Mysophobia in no time,ok?" I still look down and nod when Sen tells me this. I know she has faith in me but I don't think I can do it. I'm just not sure but I will try my best. I look up and with determination in my eyes I ask, "When do we start?!"