ATTACK ON TITAN ONE SHOTS

Jean x Reader (Never letting go)

MODERN AU

   You walked home slowly, your mind swirling with all the events that happened today. " why... Mom ...why did you leave?" When you were only 8 your mom had gotten into a accident and died, you didn't have anywhere to go now and your dad left you long ago. It's been 15 since then and life has been hard for you. You suddenly stopped walking at the sound of your phone buzzing.

Jean: I'm home early so I'll make dinner today I was thinking some spaghetti:) see ya soon.love ya.

You smiled at the sweet message that he sent, truth is Jean was your only reason to live. "HEY ARE YOU GONNA WALK OR WHAT BITCH?!." You turned around and found a fairly large man. You just stood there. " WELL?" He suddenly pushed you causing you fall and drop your phone. " ugh " you felt a slight pain in your knee and found a hole in your leggings. You looked up and watched as the man stepped over you. You stood up and picked up your phone," fuck." You traced your fingers over the new cracks in your phone. You sighed and continued to walk home.

  You turned the key and opened the door and found Jean in the kitchen with a smile "hey what took you so long?" You faked a smile and hugged him. " nothing ." You made your way into your room and
Locked the door.  You walked into your bathroom pulling out one of your many blades. Truth is you did cut but was really good at covering everything up. You dragged the blade across your skin, it stings but at the same time it felt good.

One for mom
Two for fucking up at work today
Three for being ugly
Four for falling
Five for being a burden
And six for...

This time you cut too deep and watched as the Crimson color ran down your arm. You quickly washed away the blood and pulled your sleeve down. You walked out and into the kitchen "hey dinner is almost ready." You grabbed a water bottle form the fridge And  looked at Jean and nodded. "Hey you ok?" Jean stopped stirring the water and looked at you. "Everything is fine." You lied, "ok." you walked past him bumping your arm into a corner of the table.

"Fuck...ugh."

You hissed in pain and held your arm seeing the red liquid seep through. "Fuck"
You turned around so Jean wouldn't see what happened but it was too late for that.
Jean turned off the stove and over to you "F/N!, WHAT HAPPENED ARE YOU OK?!" He knelt down beside you, you couldn't hold back anymore, as you spoke you felt the warm liquid run down from your face. " I can't do this anymore, I'm worthless, I'm ugly, I don't deserve to live in this world!" You cried even harder than before.

Jean quickly took your arm and pulled down the sleeve. Was speechless but soon pulled you into a tight embrace "listen f/n if you were to leave this world I wouldn't know what to do with my life I would go crazy. Without you my life is blank and empty... So please...don't ever say these things again, your beautiful the way to are." You smiled at his words and even laughed. " you sure know how to make girl happy. " you pulled away and looked him in the eyes. "Don't ever think you life is less valuable than anyone else's." Jean pulled you back into another hug.

" Jean, don't ever let me go."
"I don't plan on it."

Sorry if this was bad in my opinion I really like this:)
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