Hard Life

Waking up

"I don't think he's going to make it," a strange voice says. Everything is pitch black. I try to open my eyes but they're just too heavy.

"Please, just give him a little longer. I just know he'll pull through," a small girls' voice spoke with a lot of plea. I try to move anything at all but my whole body it so numb.

"It's been nine days now. Please, Lilly, let us do our job. Just let us put him out of his misery," the strange voice spoke again. I try and speak but it's too difficult. I want to know what they're talking about. I want to see what these two people are, I want to know who they are.

"No. Please. Just give him a little longer. I just know he'll wake up soon." The squeaky voice is starting to crack. I can tell this person is close to tears. I need to move. I need to do something.

"I'll make you a deal. If he doesn't wake up tonight, we have to cut him off," I think I understand what they're talking about now. I think it's about me. I need to wake up and move. I don't want to die. I want to be with Lilly.

I can hear some sobbing. I guess the squeaky voice agreed to this. This squeaky voice that the nurse called Lilly not too long ago is my Lilly, is my sister. I can hear footsteps walking away from me and another pair approach me. The one pair that approached me grabs my hand. I can feel her warmth.

"Please.....Please wake up," I hear Lilly sob and feel teardrops hit my hand, "Please, don't leave me alone in this world. I'm so tired of being alone." I'm trying my best to open my eyes again and move my hand at the same time. They're so heavy but I just can't stop now. I somehow got my eyes to open a little and lightly hold Lilly's hand.

I feel a lot of relief when I can slowly feel the rest of my body. It takes a little while before I have the strength to move anything else. I get my eyes open and look at Lilly. She still hasn't realized I've woken up. I reach my other hand up and place it upon her face, wiping a tear. "Sssssshhhhhh..... I won't leave you.....It's going to be okay," I mumble through the breathing mask.

Lilly lifts her head up and looks at me stunned. I guess she's trying to make sure her mind isn't playing tricks on her. I try my best to give her a little smile. Lilly then kneels down and does something. I'm not sure what it was, but it called in all the nurses.

A lot of nurses walk into the room, but as they come close to me they stop and stare. I don't really pay attention to them. I keep looking at Lilly and won't let go of her hand. One nurse jumps out of her shocked state and turns off to the machine that has been keeping me alive while I was away. Lilly takes off my breathing mast as the nurse hooks me up to a different machine.

I smile at Lilly and finally look at the nurses. They start jumping around and hugging each other like it's some kind of reunion party. I laugh on the inside for they all look so funny.

"How long was I out for?" I ask with my voice horse. "Uh... about nine days," Lilly tells me. That just confirms that the conversation I was listening to was about me.

Lilly hugs me tightly as all the nurses leave, "I'm so glad you're awake. I need to tell you something." I let her go so she can look at me as she tells me what she needs to.

"So apparently we have had a home the whole time. We weren't going to go to an orphanage we were ganna live with one of the police men at the station. She came by to see us almost a week ago," Lilly paused and looked down, "She wanted me to go with her... to her house, but I just couldn't leave you." I stay still shocked by all this new information. What I went through was for nothing? We would have been together this whole time no matter what. I just can't believe this. Why didn't the officers tell us this?

"Did she tell you anything else?" I asked wanting to know who this person was. Lilly nods, "Her name is Beth and she's really pretty." I give her a smile, "I'm glad you like her."

Lilly and I talk for about an hour before I noticed Lilly getting tired. I told her to head to bed and we could talk more tomorrow but she said she wanted to stay by me. I can tell that she's about to collapse on the floor form exhaustion so I run the idea of going to bed by her again. She nods and heads to her bed on the other side of the curtain.

I watch her crawl into bed before rolling on my side and slowly drifting off to sleep. I pull the blanket up to my shoulders to keep me warm. At this moment I start thinking of all the stuff I have put her through and realize she's not her little self any more. Then again, I will never be the same either.

I wake up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason. My eyes are focused on what's beyond the window. I see many stars out and with the few city lights below the scene is so perfect. I slowly turn over to see if Lilly was awake. She's still passed out with her arms wrapped tightly around her pillow. At least her sleeping style hasn't changed.

She's always been so cute when she sleeps. It reminds me of a strong cat. It sleeps ever so peacefully but once you disturb its sleep you wish you were dead.

I flip myself back over and look at the scenery once more. I could stare at it for hours and never get bored. Out of nowhere a shooting star flies across the sky. I close my eyes and make a wish. I know it will never come true but it's the only thing I could ever wish for right now.

After absorbing the night sky and city lights, I turn again to look at Lilly. I slowly crawl out of bed and try to stand. I miss the feeling of being close to Lilly. Once my feet hit the ground I fall to the ground. All I wanted to do was get to Lilly.

I slowly crawl to her bed and pulling my I.V pole with me. Once I make it to her bed I do my best to get up on it without waking Lilly. Somehow I managed to get the job done and I look at Lilly. I'm sure I got this weird smile on my face but I don't care. I get to be close to Lilly this night.

I slowly crawl behind her and lay down. I'm proud of myself for doing this. I got out of my own bed and crawled to Lilly's bed. I even managed to get into it without waking her. I'm a flip'n ninja. I then calm myself down and find a way to get back to sleep. I don't want Lilly to hurt anymore. I just want to go home now.