The Last Wish.

CHAPTER 5

TWO WEEKS HAVE PASTED AND IVE JUST GOTTEN WORSE. Casper keeps asking me questions, I lay on my bed having stayed home from school and I decide I need to tell them all. When Jem gets home he has chocolate and Casper I take the chocolate from Jem and hug and kiss them both. Jem and Casp sit on my bed and look at me I smile at them "Yes?" Jem and Casp ask in unison "Are you gonna tell them?" I sigh and nod "Yes. When they get home. Im very tired can you guys let me sleep?" They nod and leave the room and I fall asleep.

Mom opens my door "You wanted to talk to us?" Dad follows after her I bite my bottom lip and nod then when dad starts to close the door I stop him "And Jem and Casp." Mom looks at dad "Casp went home." I nod and then Dad gets Jem. Jem looks at me like 'I already know why waste my time?' I smile sadly at him if only he knew the half of it. I look at them all and tears well up in my eyes but I push them down and say "Mom. Dad. A month and two weekd ago me and Casp had sex. Unprotected sex and im pregnant." Mom and dad protest angrily and dad gets up "im calling that little shits parents how dare he not wear a condom!" I stop them all by saying "Theres more." They all look at me and I take a deep breath "Two months ago I went to the doctors because I was always tired and I wanted to make sure I was okay and my doctor ran some tests on me and when he came back he told me... I have... Acute Luekimia." Mom, Dad and Jem all gasp and Jem shakes his head slowly "But Luekimias cancer." Tears well up in his eyes and tears well up in mine too I take a shakey breath "Yeah Jem, I know what it is. And I have it. And I wont live past 1 to 2 years. But this baby? I want it. As my last wish." Mom and dad start crying and Jem crawls onto my bed and into my lap and I wince but wrap my arms around him. His shoulders shake and I feel hot tears on my neck and shoulder. He grips me tight and I wince out loud and I say "Jem, you can't squeeze me like that anymore, I bruise easily. Mom can you hand me those three bottles of pills?" She grabs the bottles with shakey hands and hands it to me. I open the bottle and put two of each into my mouth. Jem looks at me his beautiful face red, wet and blotchy and he says "Pey... Do you have to take so many?" I smile at him "The first ones to help ease the pain that sometimes keeps me up, the second ones for my joint pain and the third ones to help me sleep. Which I don't really need since the cancer makes me tired all the time." Mom cries louder and Jem says threw sobs "Thats why your always sleeping." Tears flow down my face and I nod and hug him tightly even though its going to leave bruises he hugs me tightly back and cries harder. I hear my parents sob and Jem looks up at me "Pey... Can't they save you?" I look at him and shake my head "No, Jem baby. No they can't. I'm so sorry." Jem cries into me harder and my dad finally speaks "My baby girl..." His voice cracks and breaks. I smile sadly at him and Jem looks up at me "Pey, are you suppose to go to school?" I wipe tears from my face "No. They told me to stay home but I couldn't do that and risk you guys finding out before I was ready." Jem looks down at my bed and I see the little boy I use to push on the swings and play hide and seek with and I sob he looks up at me and says "Is the baby helping?" I hesitate and say "It makes me very happy but... No. No it doesn't, It actually drains my life." Jem cries harder "Then get rid of it!" I look down at my hands "Jem... Even if I did I would still die. I'd just suffer longer and leave you all with nothing to remember me by." Jem looks at me and mom and dad leave the room to give us privacy he says "Your in pain?" I nod "Lots, Cancer hurts baby boy. And I'd rather not suffer as long and leave behind a legacy. Jem baby, I want you to know that no matter what I have and always will love you." Jem cries some more and he crawls onto my bed and I lay down next to him and wrap my arms around him he snuggles to my chest and I hold him while he cries. He kisses my cheek and says "Pey, your one of the best people I have ever known and I am so honored to be your brother. And I swear to you that I'll help with the baby and ill cherish it." I cry silently and nod "Thank you Jem." We stay this way for a little while until Casper bursts threw my door and looks at Jems red tear filled face he runs to the bed "What happened? Pey?" I cry harder and look at Jem "Baby boy can I talk to Casper alone?" He nods his head and reluctantly leaves my room I sit up in bed and wince Casper looks worried "Whats happening?" I sniff "Two months ago I went to the doctors because I was tired alot and I wanted to makes sure I was okay my doctor ran some tests on me and when he came he told me... I have... Acute Luekimia." Caspers face crumples and he says tears streaming down his face "You have cancer?" I nod and he cries harder, he hugs me tightly and I wince "Casp. You cant hug me so tight I bruise easily." He lets go and looks at me "Is that why your always sleeping?" I nod and tears flow down my face I rest my hand on my stomach and say "Our baby is my legacy, my last wish." Casp looks at me completely heart broken and I say "No. it doesnt help it makes me very happy but its draining what life I have left and I wont live past 1 to 2 years. But baby its worth it." He cries and cries and I hold him while he cries. Then Jem comes in tears streaming down his face "Casper, your parents want you home." Casper nods and looks at me "I love you with all my heart and ill be back tomorrow to pick you up for school." I shake my head "Im not going to school anymore. I can't im sorry." He nods and kisses me sweetly he leaves the room. Jem stands in the doorway and I motion toward my bed and I pat the spot next to me and Jem runs to me and he lays next to me hes still crying and says "Do you need more pills Pey?" I shake my head "No I just need you Jem." He hugs me and lays down under my blanket with me. I hold him in my arms and I fall asleep to the rhythm of Jems shaking shoulderd and slight sobs.

The next morning I wake up and Jems getting ready for school, he sets out all my pills for me and I take them with my glass of water. I get out of bed and wince Jem helps me to my closet and I dress quickly in a pair of black sweat pants and a long sleeved black Hollister V-neck and Black Uggs. I slowly put my hair in a sloppy bun and say to Jem "Hey buddie what do you say about moving into my room and staying with me?" Jem smiles brightly and he nods his head "Yes. That would be great thanks Pey." I nod and we walk into the kitchen and Mom makes me strawberry and cream oatmeal and I eat the whole bowl by force. For Jems sake. We load into moms car and she drops Jem off at school and I kiss his head before he leaves "I love you." He smiles a sad smile "I love you too." Mom drives me to my school and I walk into it while she waits in the car. I run into my best friend Riley Herondale he walks up to me and hugs me tightly I smile and he says "Homeroom?" I shake my head "I need to do something.." He nods his head and says "I'll come over tonight." I nod. Then I walk into the guidance office and sit in the chair across from the guidance counselor and say "My names Peyton Grey, and I would like to withdraw from school. I have a note from my doctor... I have... Acute Luekimia. And im dying, im to stay home." The guidance counselor gives me a sympathic look and files me out of school. I go to all my classes and tell them all that I am no longer going to be attending school because im dying. All my teachers cry and tell me that they'll miss me. I leave the school and get into my mother's car. She drives me home and then she leaves for work. I fall asleep curled up on my bed.