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Chapter 3

May unsure of herself, her thoughts and life fell asleep on the swing itself.The night was cold but warm enough to let her sleep peacefully,after all nothing can beat the coldness her soul is fighting against.It was late afternoon when she finally was awake from her unconscious slumber.She is afraid what today is going to bring her.Is it gonna be an eventful day or just like all the other days that came and passed? But ahahahahahaha it's okay.She's used to people using her,walking out of her life,people talking shit about her,people pretending to be her friends,people lying to her,people disappointing her and leaving her hanging.She 's used to people stabbing her in back,people replacing her in their circle of friends,used to keeping secrets from her,betraying her trust and used to bringing down her self-esteem.She's used to people messing with her feelings,used to people toying around with her head and of course breaking her now fragile heart.So whatever happens to her at this point of time , it won't hurt or give her pain any more; not even a surprise or a shock because all is gone except the numbness left behind.What saddens her is how it's gotten to the point where she can say it doesn't matter any more, that it doesn't hurt her any more.....a girl who was once full of life and enthusiasm for each day and the challenges brought along with it was now nothing more than a shell of sadness.

"May? May where have you been so long?" said James his voice full of sleep.

"Morning Jay,Nothing to worry about I slept here" May said pointing out her hands to random direction of terrace and swing.In return he said nothing but just squinted his eyes so he could avoid the excess light that he had been just exposed to."It's been a while that you have been sleeping here? Are you running low on finances that you can't pay the house rent that we share?" He said chuckling loudly."Oh sure sure!" She replied,"Besides it's more nicer here."Rolling her big auburn coloured eyes."Baby I'm nicer than anything else" James replied sarcastically and winked at her which caused May to burst into a low laughter.

"Hey? But you're kinda awake way too early for your liking.Is everything okay?" questioned James."Of course ,I'm fine.Absolutely.""Hahahahahahah okayyyyyyyyyyyyy " singing like it is how it should be.How can he be so cheerful so early in the morning? Well,it is wrong to say at this point because what May has learned about James is that he is this one person who is always chilled-out ,extremely social and popular and the one who is always in the centre of the attention or if not then he knows how to get it.He is known to be a playboy and rude but he is soft and level-headed,understanding and mature.But the qualities mentioned do not betray him too.He acts hard on the outside but in truth,isn't. He knows the right thing to say and do and can listen to May's rants and talks for hours without complaining attentively.He can give good advice and most of the time is extremely supportive of her. In fact,he is the only support system May has since she and her sister,Anne lost their parents.James was actually a friend of May and Anne's one of the casual boyfriend.

Anne is never serious in any relationship.She is the most 'wanted' and 'hard to get' girl in their school.Anne is tall, tanned beautifully with a petite waist and well defined curves and booty.Her hair are blonde and reach just below her heavy chest in perfectly straight manner.In short ,she is the one girl on which guys drool and wish to have their lucky chance.She is rude yet flirtatious and extremely hard to get.James too,was a boy with a well defined body with dark blue -greyish eyes that looked like storm and a perfect face with jawline and knee weakening smile.Again, to be short and precise he was a tall Greek god.People and everyone else thought they are perfect for each other,one is a Greek god and the other is a goddess,his goddess to burn all the other girls out there at that.For the very first time both of their relationship lasted loner than a month or so and they were quite serious for each other too because despite of looks,popularity and attention,Anne believes him to be her hero and he believes that she is someone who is a princess and she deserves all of the world's love and affection.

While Anne smokes the hell out her lungs and gets high with her friends in parties without James, he on the other hand drinks his mind out and make out with random girls.Both are okay and frank with their demands and many people judge them to be stupid and kiddish but they can't understand them and neither do they expect them.They have their own world with their own rules and they're just finding a way to be happy and content in their own way separate from their demons and sorrow.Everyone has their own way to drown and ignore their demons and sorrows and this could not be understood better by anyone except May.

"But are you fine as in I'm not fine sense or you don't have to worry about me fine sense or actually fine?I know you since a quite lot of time and hiding your pain isn't any better.You know that ,don't you ?And even if you don't the let me tell you I have dealt with many maniacs and trust me you're the most sensible one!"

"Oh god! You're annoying.Trust me I'm fine as in fine.Just get me a hot chocolate please?"

"As you wish baby girl."

"Thank you"

"Needless"

"Okay go"

"Going"

"Shoo"

"Shooing"

"James?Fuck off and get me a hot chocolate fucking right now! Don't fucking piss me off at this hour of the fucking day for fuck's sake"

"Okay!Okay ! Now I know you're fucking fine" said James laughing his ass off.He smirked and went off.

May on the other hand was beyond pissed and she took deep breathes to calm herself.She knew she wasn't okay and she hoped for the day when she will be fine.She didn't wanted to tell James what was going on her mind because well she didn't wanted him to get irritated.She just sighed and wished if she could be like her sister,carefree,beautiful and happy?

"Morning May!"May turned around to see her sister standing in her shorts and slip, her tummy piercing visible ,make-up smeared and hair messy. Clearly she had just woken up but still managed to look sexy.She plopped on the lounger and took out a cigarette from her back pocket,lit it up and smoked a puff out of it.

"Cigarette babes?" She held out her hand to May

"Poison please?" replied May groaning in frustration.Anne just laughed it off and when May was about to be out she replied,"WE ARE GOING TO SCHOOL."