Silent Talks (Luke and Aleisha Fanfic)

Chapter Five

I told the nurse that Luke will just come up with me and she allowed me.

"Hey Luke" I tapped his knee. But he still wouldn't wake up. He probably didn't have enough sleep.

"Luke wake up." I tapped his knee a little harder then he jolted up as if he was startled and started looking around until his face settled on me.

"Oh hey. Do you need anything?" He scratched his eyes and started fixing his quiff.

"Not really. Do you wanna come up to the rooftop with me?" I asked him gently seeing he was still sleepy.

"Yeah sure." He stood up and I almost forgot how tall he was. He's 6"3 (A/N: OR 6'4 WITH HIS HAIR AND 6"2 W/O THE HAIR. SO I MADE IT 6"3 XD IM NOT SURE.). That's at least a foot taller than me, I had to strain my neck to look up at him.

We started walking with my IV still attached so I had to drag it with me to the elevator. When we got in the elevator it was a comfortable silence. I saw him lean on the corner of the elevator and start closing his eyes. He must be really sleepy. I almost forgave him right then and there but I remembered all the heartache.

The elevator dinged and we walked out. This is my favorite part of the hospital. It was all green and there was a swing set and bench where you could overlook the city. The view is nice and there's a soft breeze that I love so much.

I dragged my IV with me as I sat down on the swing and Luke sat on the other. We were swinging in a comfortable silence until he spoke up.

"You know I'm sorry right?" He turned his face to me and I saw dark circles under his eyes.

"You're doing that tilting your head when you're thinking." He announced to me. Even Sapphire told me, I guess it's a weird habit of mine.

I looked at him, "Sorry for what? The break up?"

"Everything I guess. I'm really sorry. I wasn't there for you. I didn't know you were going through so much. If only I'd known-" He was looking so conflicted.

"It's fine. If you'd known, you couldn't have done anything. You wouldn't stop your life for me. And you shouldn't so that's totally fine, I think. Not fine like you're forgiven totally. But just....fine. Sorry for being confusing." I laughed to myself a little for rambling.

He only looked at me and we enjoyed each other's company. His phone rang, he answered the call and I'm guessing it's Arzaylea. He stood about a meter away from me then he started speaking.

"Hey babe"

"Yeah, no. I'm in the hospital."

"No chill. Nothing happened to me. Just to a.....friend" I looked down at my hands. Yeah, friends. Not going to deny the little pinch on my chest but that's fine. He's going away again anyway.

"Okay, love you too." That's when I completely stared at the ground. I know it's been quite a long time so why wouldn't he be in love with someone else? Do I want him to be in love with me? Of course not....maybe a little. I just have a little feelings for him still. It'll be gone soon, I hope.

Then Luke caught me staring at the ground suddenly finding it interesting.

"Hey you okay there?" I looked up at him quickly.

"Yeah! Definitely! Why wouldn't I be okay? Right? I mean I'm just sitting here." Oh god. I'm terrible at lying. He chuckled a little as if trying to hide it when I just felt like crying again.

"Okay, whatever you say. Let's get you back to your room."

"Already?!" He checked his watch.

"We've been here for half an hour. Aaaand I have to go home."

"Oh yeah. Maybe I should see Liz sometime?"

"Yeah I'll tell her." He helped me up and that single touch sparked up every lost feeling that was thrown years ago. I knew he felt it too because he looked directly into my eyes and I had this sudden urge to just kiss him. So I did...ALMOST did. We both leaned forward but I guess he remembered he had a girlfriend. Nothing hurts more than pure rejection. I feel so ashamed because I gave in so quick. He has girlfriend what the hell was I thinking?!

I didn't realize that I was thinking out loud.

He cleared his throat. "Uhm let's go." He pulled me up and we went in the elevator. Now there's just this weird tension you can cut with a knife. What the hell went into my mind?!

We were infront of my room and there was just this awkward silence.

"Uh-You know-" We said at the same time

"You go first" we said again at the same time

"Okay you go" Luke said

"Uhm...about awhile ago. I'm sorry for that" I could literally feel the awkwardness.

"Yeah, kind of my fault as well. I'm sorry too. Anyway, I'll be seeing you soon. It was great seeing you again" He gave me a smile which definitely made happy and erupt butterflies in my stomach. That was weird.

"Okay, same goes for me, bye" I smiled at him as well. I watch him walk away until he turned and I couldn't see him anymore. Oh god. I'm a freaking mess. Why the hell did I smile? I thought I was mad at him?