Silent Talks (Luke and Aleisha Fanfic)

Chapter Twelve

"No Luke. You didn't."

"Then who did?" His words laced with concern

"Nobody did." Dismissing his question. I looked down remembering how nobody bruised my shoulder. The world was just simply unfair. He needs to leave.

"Go home Luke. You're not even suppose to be here." I turn my face away from him because I couldn't bare the hurt expression on his face.

"What are you saying Aleisha?" He was so confused and I didn't want to hurt him. If only he knew.

"Please Luke. This is what's good for us." My voice was barely a whisper.

"You were fine when I came here but you want me to leave now?"

"Yes. Please leave. We said goodbye to each other 6 months ago." Trying to make the almost-kiss as a spur of the moment.

"What about what happened awhile ago?" His eyebrows were scrunched up and I didn't really know what to say.

"it was an accident. it means nothing."

Why are you saying this?! I love you Aleisha, okay? Those six months made me realize what I could've had if I was with you. It made me think about you every single day. There was no second in those months that I didn't want to call you. Do you know how many times I wanted to call you or text you. But I was so unsure and afraid that maybe you didn't feel what I felt. That maybe there's so much anger in you that you don't want to be with me anymore. There was no song that was never dedicated to you. I really do love you Aleisha. Please tell me what's wrong. " His face was so in pain and my breathing was labored as I try to control myself and remain calm. He was holding both my arms and then he drops his forehead to my shoulder. My heartbeat stopped the moment he said those words that I've been yearning for so long. But I couldn't hurt him. I wouldn't. I wanted to say that I love him too that I'd drop everything for him. But what if I hurt him. What if he feels the pain that I felt when he left me. What if when I tell him that love him too he'd be disappointed that it'd just be three months then I'd leave him. He' be disappointed that when I leave him, I'd be gone forever. I don't want that to happen. I don't want to develop these feelings even more only to set up ourselves to disappointment and pain. I wouldn't want that and I know he wouldn't too.

I couldn't say anything because I was afraid that I'd put his hopes up. I just ran my hand through his hair again and again while I try not cry. I had to stay strong for both of us.

He was hugging me for so long that I let him lay his head on my lap while I continue to run my hand through his hair until he fell asleep. When I saw his breathing even I kissed his forehead and whispered to him, " I love you too, Luke. But there are things that cannot be." I lean my back and fell into a deep sleep knowing that I had him in my arms.