Healing Broken Wounds.

Part 9: All On My Own

It took quite a while to get a job and an apartment of my own but I did it, only I was a bit saddened by the fact that my apartment was a good distance away from my son. I let him live with Josh because it was closer to school and he loved being around his dad, so now I was all on my own.

Living in the apartment all alone was very lonely and the silent tore me up inside. My friends were always busy and so they rarely came over. I started thinking to myself that maybe it really was time to move on but my heart would not allow me to.  Mordecai started coming over on the weekends but  I didn't feel like he was close to me like he used to be. He barely had anything to tell me about school or anything and as a mother it really hit me hard. The nights became lonelier and lonelier until I had to put me first and push my feelings for Josh aside so I decided that it was only fair to myself that I found somebody that I could love as well.

One of my friends suggested speed dating whilst another suggested that I did online dating which was more convenient for me so that's what I did. I started doing online dating  and the men were all interesting but no one seemed to fit my needs. I was becoming stressed and felt like love was hopeless until one night I got a message from a new guy called Zach. I messaged him back and we began talking immediately. He seemed to be meeting up to my expectations in a guy. He was tall, had that nice slicked back hair, green eyes,humorous and the list goes on.  We started talking a lot. It went from once a week to everyday in the week and I liked it a lot. My loneliness was leaving me slowly but surely. I loved talking to him and I was really getting the feeling that he felt the exact same way.

A few months later, I was chatting with him and he finally asked me to be his girlfriend and I couldn't help but say yes. He was my new lover and happiness and I was glad to have him be apart of my life but it was time to meet each other in person. He made reservations at a nearby FANCY restaurant for the following Monday at eight in the evening. I was more than excited. I bought a new dress, new shoes and I had one of my friends do my make up. I had to make sure there was no way he couldn't like me cause I was more than desperate for love.