It's a couple weeks later and I've begun to cry every night until I fall asleep, and every time I picture Eric's face my side aches, but it doesn't ache with pain, it aches with emotions, and I'm constantly feeling all of the emotions that ever existed at the same time, it hurts me a lot. I'm not sure how much more I can take. So I've decided to take a gamble and tell my older brother and see if he can help me with anything. So later that day I go up to my bother and I tell him everything from me finding out that I'm gay to my super long lasting crush on Eric. Surprisingly he completely understood. Apparently he's bi. So he tells me "I don't blame you for liking him he's a cutie, I personally could see him swinging either way. But if you've liked him this long, and he's caused you this much pain then it's probably best that you forget about him. I know you, and I know that you defiantly don't want to let go, but you need to think of what's best for the long run, and just what's best for yourself in general. But when you get down to it, it's your decision so you do whatever you deem worthy."
My brothers answer is pretty much what I wanted. Then how come I'm still completely torn. I just don't want to ever let go of him because I guess I'm just scared of the pain that I'll go through. If this is how awful I feel when I like someone, then I would hate to feel what it's like to force your self to get over someone. No matter what I do it's going to end badly.
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Silently Screaming
Non-FictionHey this is my very first time writing a story, please comment and tell me what I could do to make my next story better, and/or what you want me to write about next time This story is basically about how being gay had an impact on my life, how...
