VB: Under Construction

VB: Chapter 4 |

Previously on Violated Body:

My life is such a living hell. My grades are going down,

I lost a lot of weight this past month, and

I can't stop thinking about what happened!

During the time it's late and people are sleeping, I go upstairs to the bathroom. I look through the counter and some drawers and find pills. I take some.

I just want to forget about it. I want to forget about everything. The pain, the sorrow,

everything. I bet nobody would care about me if I committed suicide. But I won't do that anyway. I might consider it at a time though.

The only people I have is my mom and Drew. I'm tired of all the shit that's

happened to me to cause me to do this. And to consider committing suicide, it's

just crossing the line. I just need to let go and forget about the pain. I should've done this long ago. I feel like I really need this to calm my  nerves down  and to stop being such a psychotic freak.

So I'm just here. Should I even be alive? Life is just too hard for me.

What am I supposed to do? Just take the pills. It'll make me feel better.

Chapter 4:

Ace

I actually felt better. I don't know why I didn't do this before. I took a few more in the morning before I went to school. I had a great sleep for the first time ever. No nightmares. It was actually about my life when my mom and dad were together. I was young then, but I was really close to my dad. I was into a lot of sports back then, so my dad would always cheer me on when I would play soccer, basketball,volleyball, and track. Yep I was a sporty girl. But to many problems came afoot when my dad and mom had divorced. They have been fighting a lot and it's been really annoying. I always thought they would stay together forever because they love each other so much, but I was wrong. It hurts that they both divorced at such a horrible time. My mom is also depressed, but she is really good at hiding it. Me not so much. I wish my life was normal like how other families are. I don't like being such a freak. I want friends, I want to have a perfect family, but no, that's not what I should have. I wish I wasn't anorexic either. UGH, I almost died because I didn't eat! But these pills are helping me out. They're making me feel happy and alive.

As I go to school I feel a little droopy, it's weird. But then I start jittering. Huh, must be nothing. I went to my first class and It was very lively that day. I think it was because of me. Obviously.

"The delegates from how many states were present on the first day of the Convention?", asked my History teacher.

I raised my hand very quickly I felt kind of dizzy. 

"Oooh Ooh oh I know I know  About twee-fiddy. Frank and Henry were busy watching the superbowl, and George was away concerning himself over the heritage of the arabian serpant, Iggyzooboo."

The whole classed laughed.

"Uhh, Acacia, that doesn't really answer my question."

"Hey DON'T CALL ME THAT NAME!" I screamed. "I HATE THAT NAME. IT'S ACE GOT IT?!"

Everyone turned and stared at me like I was crazy. Mr Hither is a very serious teacher. He doesn't like to really tolerate foolishness.

" Ms. Oni, as it says on this attendance sheet, Acacia Oni, therefore that is your name. Not Ace."

"UGGH I HATE YOU SO MUCH! I HATE THIS CLASS TOO! IT'S BORING AS FUCK! NOBODY EVER LIKED YOU ANYWAYS, YOU NO HAVING WOMAN IN YOUR LIFE AND DYING AONE ASS. I WISH YOU WOULD QUIT WITH YOUR SORRY ASS."