It started with a cup of coffee

Hospital Bed

Michaels POV

I sit in the back of the ambulance tightly holding Lily's hand never wanting to let go of it, the paramedics have put an oxygen mask over her face and the inside of it has steamed up from her breath I keep telling myself that's good because as long as it stays steamed it means she is still breathing, and if she is still breathing she is still alive and with me. The paramedic had a cloth pressed against Lily's stab wound to help slow down the bleeding, the what was once white cloth is now saturated in Lily's blood and I just keep thinking to myself why couldn't it be me lying in the back of an ambulance almost dying. When we arrive at the hospital there is a team of doctors waiting for us and they don't hesitate to take Lily from the ambulance and take her straight to the operating theatre. I don't know what to do when I got to the hospital so I just sit down and try to relax but I cant so I get up and just start to pace. 2 hours have passed since Lily was taken to the operating theatre and there is still know news I am now really worried about her what if she hasn't made it, what if she is de-

-Mr Scofield. A men with a white doctors jacket on shouts.

-Yes that's me, im Mr Scofield.

-Well Lily has just come out of the operating theatre and we have managed to stop the bleeding. A huge wave of relief comes over me and I let of a huge sign.

-But. The doctor continues making any feeling a relief I just had disappear. But she lost a lot of blood on the way to the hospital and she is very weak the next 24-48 hours will be critical, if she does manage to pull through the recovery process will be long and she will unfortunately be in a lot of pain and discomfort.

-Okay I understand, thank you for what you have done do you think its possible for me to see her?

-Yes that will be ok but she has not woken up from the anesthetic we gave her before surgery and she is in a critical condition so just be careful and if you notice any changes in her breathing or anything like that alert a nurse straight away and we will see to her.

-Okay thanks Doctor um.

-Doctor Whale. He extends his hand out and I shake it, he opens the door to the room that Lily is in and I enter.

Lily is lying on a bed motionless other then her chest moving up and down at a slow speed, there are tubes coming out of her mouth supplying her oxygen, a needle has been placed in the top of her hand connecting her to a bag of blood. I walk over to her bed and take a seat next to her and pick up her hand and place it in mine and I just sit like this for about 5 minuets, the only sounds I can hear is Lily's soft breathing. The silence was awful so I decided to talk to her.

-Um Lily I don't know if you can her me but, wow this is harder then I thought. I can feel tears in my eyes but I carry on. I just want you to know that I love you so much and I will never love anyone else as much as I love you and its all my fault you are hear right now and I am so sorry I couldn't save you will you forgive me? I don't know why I said that I wasn't really expecting a reply. I love you Lily. I bring her hand up to my lips and softly kiss it.

*Beep  

I look up and see that the heart monitor has flat lined and Lily's chest has stopped moving. I quickly run to the door and push it open.

-Help someone please help she's stopped breathing, she's not breathing!! About 10 doctors and nurses run into the room and start trying to revive her, I try to go into the room but Doctor Whale wont let me.

-Please Doctor I need to see her.

-It would be in Lily's best interest if you stay out here you cant help her in there ok.

-.... Okay. I stand at the window watching and the doctor presses his hands on Lily's chest and start pumping up and down but nothing changes so one of the nurses rips Lily's hospital gown open and she place to pads on her chest I then see a doctor hold a defibrillator and place it onto the pads.

-CLEAR! He shouts and he presses them into Lily's chest, her body jerks upwards from the shock but nothing happens. The doctor places the defibrillator back on her chest.

-CLEAR! He repeats the process 3 more times and nothing happens. This is it, this is going to be when I lose the one person I only care about, tears come streaming down my face and I let them. Just as the doctors start leaving the room the heart monitor starts beeping again and Lily's chest is moving again. My knees go weak and I drop to the ground, I hold my head in my hands and cry. She is alive again I've not lost her.

~2 Days later~

Lily has still not woken up since being taken out of surgery 2 days ago. I've visited her every day and not left her side the whole time I've been here. Word had gotten out about what happened to Lily on the news and strangers have been turning up to her room with flowers, cards, get well soon balloons and chocolates, one person even got her a giant teddy that is bigger then Lily herself. I put the MTV UK top 40 on the telly because it is one of Lily's favourite channels when Stitches by Shawn Mendes comes on, I smile because it is one of her favourite songs every time it comes on she would get up and dance and sing to it as loud as she could no matter where she was. When the song finishes Lily's hand moves inside mine, I look over at her and she is finally starting to wake

-Lily... She starts to groan.

-W-Where a-am I??

-Lily your in the hospital, do you remember what happened to you ? Lily looks over at me and when she recognises me she pulls  her hand out of mine.

-Lily lo-

-Michael please not now im not in the mood I just want to be alone. I give her a weak smile

-Okay I will be waiting outside if need me.

Lily's POV

I am really confused about how I feel toward Michael right now. One part of me just wants to forgive him and to be held by him again because I miss him so much but the other part hates him especially now I found about his past him going to prison and killing people I don't know if I feel safe round him any more but It doesn't matter how I feel right now because I am in no mood to deal with it. I've been awake for 3 days now I've started to get up and walk round my room, I can only walk for a small amount of time because it comes to painful but im improving each time I try. I've refused to see Michael but I think I am finally ready to face whatever feeling I have towards him and see him. Its just gone 1:30pm and Michael come into my room he gives me a small smile, I don't return the smile I just look down not willing to make eye contact with him Michael is the first to brake the silence.

-So.... how are you feeling today.

-Well I've been better. This causes Michael to let out a small laugh. He come over next to my bed and he takes a seat next to me.

-Michael can I ask you something?

-Sure you can ask me anything.

-You have never really told me about your past, why did you move to England? What did you do when you lived in America? This it this is the moment when Michael has the chance to tell me the truth about his past and who he is. 

 Authors notes- Sorry for not updating lots recently im really busy revising for exams and stuff like that. Sorry for this really long paragraph its one of the longest I've wrote I think. I also apologise for all the medical stuff if I got any of it wrong im not a doctor.

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