My Whole World, Has Changed

Chapter 3

     Before I knew it winter had rolled around.  I hadn't talked to Thadia in two months. My dreams had stopped though, which I took as a good sign. All my friends were still bugging me about what we had actually talked about that day. I didn't want to tell them in case they thought it was weird. Also they would probably push me at her, literally. I liked the current situation we were in, when we walked by each other in the halls we said hi. That was enough interaction for me, when ever I saw her I couldn't get her out of my head for hours. I thought I was crazy, no girl had ever made me feel this way. When I heard guys talking about her, like saying how hot she was, I got so jealous. I was gonna talk to Simon about it because I can tell him anything and he'll keep it a secret. But, well, I just thought my thoughts were too personal. 

     When I was walking to my locker that morning I opened it up and a scrap of paper fluttered out. At first I thought nothing of it, then I saw a loopy hand writing on it that definitely wasn't mine. I then opened it and read it, it read:

 Meet me at the library after school, we need to talk. 

     I couldn't tell her no, in all my classes I counted down the seconds until I was able to meet her. As soon as the last bell rang I was off like a bullet. When I got there she was already sitting down reading a book. I tried to get a look at the title but she closed the book way too fast. She looked up at me and was fiddling with her hair tie, it was so cute when she did that. I shook my head slightly, as though the thoughts would just shake off of me. She sighed, then looked me square in the eyes. I felt like how I had in one of my dreams, caught in a storm. 

"Okay, so the reason I wanted to see you was because," she paused for a few seconds and bit her lip. "I cannot stop thinking about you." She looked at me, and think the shock on my face was VERY clear to her. "Sorry, did that sound weird to you? Cuz it sure did to me." 

     I was still dumb founded, does she feel the same way I do? No, that's impossible. Well, what if it isn't? I decided that instead of looking at her weirdly, I would ask her instead. As soon as I tried to open my mouth she decided to interject. 

"Hey, I understand if you think that I'm just some weird girl who wants to get into your pants. But honestly I do think about you, all the time actually. So before you decide to shut me down, please hear me out. Okay?" I nodded my head in agreement, what else was I gonna do? She wouldn't let me interrupt her, and I didn't want to take the chance of trying. "When I think about you, I don't feel alone. When I look back on those conversations we had, I feel warm and happy inside. When I see you while were walking in the halls, I get huge butterflies in my stomach." She looked at me again, looked down at her wrist and proceed to play with her hair tie. I decided it was know or never, I decided know. 

"I feel the exact same way about you. Except, I think of you before I go to bed every night.  And when I wake up, you're the first thing on my mind." My mouth was a gape, I couldn't believe it. I had never thought these words, let alone said them aloud. Yet, I announced this to her as though I had been thinking it forever.