Gerard’s POV: After she left with Frank and Ray, I cleaned the house. After a while, I got to a bookshelf where were all our photos, for the past and the present. I looked at me as a little chubby and a girl next to me. We were holding hands and sitting on the beach. I smiled thinking it was Sydney. I looked at other photos and saw a lot of Mike and Sydney pics. That put another smile on my face and by the time I knew it I saw a photo from two moths ago, in the garage with the guys. I behind a microphone, Mikey by my left with Frank and Ray by my right, behind me was Bob. I smiled and placed the photo back on the shelf. After a bit of time I got bored so I traveled my way to my room. I sat down on my bed, looking at my carpet witch made no sense. I felt the need to look down as my thoughts flew in my head. ‘She’s never going to like you again, you’re so useless, and you should kill yourself.’ Said my mind to me, as I slowly put my head to my pillow and closed my eyes.
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-“Pleas don’t tell anyone Gee.” Said Sydney with her natural brown straight hair, and a beam of sunlight flashing in her eyes. We were at the lake looking down to the water full of tinny waves.
-“I promise. You can count on me.”
-“I hate him. He’s just so mean to my mom. Yesterday he hit her eye really hard. I was so scared so that’s why I left and I’m never coming back to him. He wants me to go away. He wants me to go away, for good. He hates me. “
-“Where? Where is he taking you? Somewhere near ,or someway far? I can’t loose you. You’re my only friend and I will kick his ass if he ever treats you like that again.”
-“But you can’t and he will come back. And kill me for what I did. “Suddenly Sydney had her black hair and black closet. Her arms were in her pockets and her brown eyes, were loosing it. One simple tear felt down her cheek. I looked into the water and saw my reflection. I was me again. Not the old me. But the seventeen year old me. I had my black skinny jeans and a Black Flag t-shirt. I looked at her again and some arm took her way from me. I looked at my beam f reflection and saw my face. I was bleeding from every possible place. My hair was all messy and I saw blood in my hands.
Suddenly I woke up all sweaty and messy. I went to the bathroom got myself clean and went down stairs. I looked at the clock and saw it was 6:38 AM. I sat down looking at fire place and not even noticing someone was in the kitchen.
-“Gerard, why are you awake this soon? And fully dressed?” asked Mikey as he was pouring coffee in to his like black cup.
-“Just a bad dream. By the way Mikey? Why did Sydney and her family move to Cali?” I asked and turned around to see Mikey drinking his coffee.
-“Jesus, I’m not sure Gee. I think ‘cause her mom got a better job or something like that why?”
-“Nothing, just asking. And Mikey? Did you made some more coffee?” I said standing up and going to the kitchen.
-“Sure thing Gee.”
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School went by. After a couple periods with Sydney, witch were fun by the way, came lunch. We sat at our table and started talking. Sydney was sitting next to Frank witch made me really uncomfortable, but I was happy seeing her happy.
-“You guys look pretty cute together.” I said looking down at them with a truthful smile.
-“What?” asked Sydney and I giggled. She was blushing bright pink and Frank too. They looked so sweet.
-“You guys, what about our practice today?” said Frank hiding his face with his black hood.
-“You guys have a band?” Sydney said loosing her blush and just smiling.
-“Yeah, I play bass, Frank and Ray play guitar, Bob is the drummer and Gerard is the vocalist.” Mikey said right away like a struck by lightning.
-“That’s cool! But who’s Bob?”
-“Our friend from another high school. He’s awesome.”I said. Opening my lunch.
-“You can come to our practice, if you want Sydney.” Frank told her looking at her hand.
-“I would love to.”She whispered hugging Frank tight.
-“ So today at five?” I asked and everyone nodded.
After school, me and Mikey went home our direction, Frank and Sydney went to the park I believe and Ray went home.
-“ Gerard, you like Sydney, don’t ya?” Asked Mikey, as we walked down the street.
-“I don’t know, why?”
-“Don’t lie to me, Gerard. I can tell that you love her. Believe it or not I’m your brother and I can see it.”
-“Okay, so maybe I do, why are you asking?”
-“ You should control your faces when you look at her and Frank. You know that Frank is your best friend. You should be happy for him. Just saying.”
I stopped for a second. Is it that obvious? Is it that simple to figure out that, I’m in love with the pretties’ girl ever? Maybe I should really control my face.
-“Mikey, I freaking love her. But I need to be happy for Frank. I can tell that she is the love of his life. His first girlfriend. I just really love them together, but I love her. Is that bad? “
-“Nope Gee, it isn’t we should get going. Bob’s house is near let’s go tell him about the practice.”
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A/N : So guys, literallyschool’s starting in a week, so that makes it even more difficult for me to upload. I’m really happy that , you are reading it. It puts a smile on my face. Just wait for the juicy stuff.
BTW: Updating on Saturdays and Thursdays from now. I really need to keep a track on my school stuff. So yeah. Thanks again for reading. Comment if you want and please share the story. Also I wanted to apologize for this chapter. It really sucks and nothing interesting happens. So I’m truly sorry.
Kristen.
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