Lisztomania | JungKook ff

5. Silent Guard

P.S: words in italic are lyrics.
P.P.S: Words in bold are written and not spoken verbally.

I messed up tonight, I lost another fight. I still mess up but I'll just start again. I keep falling down, I keep on hitting the ground, I always get up now to see what's next.

I opened up my eyes as my brain finally realised that the music has ended. I blinked few times confused, my eyelids were so heavy I barely managed to lift them, as if they were made from steal or rock. I slightly remembered staying up late at school listening to her play for who knows how long, but I couldn't recall when did it end. I obviously fell asleep. Surprisingly, I wasnt the only one. My stare stopped by a thin shaky figure leaning on the piano.

Startled by the view in front of me I ran to her as fast as possible. My heart almost climbed up my throat and jumped out my mouth. That's how scared for her I was. I kneeled next to her on the ground and my nerves immediately eased. She was evenly breathing, no doubt she fell asleep just like me. I smiled to her a bit, but she didn't see it as her eyes were closed. And no one saw, because it was dark and no one was here.

The clock srarted beating in the even rhythm. Afer twelve beats it stopped and I glanced back to check out if the sound wasn't mistaking. It was midnight. I froze there kneeling on the ground for a minute not sure what to do. We were in school's building, at the middle of the night. And no one seemed to care. No one came looking for us.

Well for her. No one came looking for her. Neither music teacher, nor that nice lady that I saw here the first time I heard her play, as I assumed fo be het mother. No they weren't here. Weren't they worried? I wasn't surprised that no one was making up storms because I went missing. My brother probably didn't even notice, my mom was too busy working her night shift in the hospital, and dad...? I never even saw him, I doubted if he would be looking for me.

I gently stroke her back running my fingers up and down her spine. She needed to wake up, I needed to wake her up and we needed to find out what is going on. But she was so deep in the sleep land. She looked like an angel dreaming, or a dream herself. I couldn't help, but stare and even forgot trying to wake her up. I just gazed every milimeter of her body and face as if she was my night dream and I was right now asleep seeing her in front of me, instead of her sleeping.

I unintentionally reached my hand out and placed my palm on her cheek. Unbelievably corner of her lip lift up even if she continued to sleep. "We have to go." I whispered into her ear with my lips so close to it I could have touched it. I knew she couldn't hear me, but I felt a bad temptation to talk to her. I was not prepared to answer where should we be going, but we couldn't stay here. If she sleeps in this position, sitting with half of her body on the piano, for a bit longer, next morning she will feel like someone broke her in half.

Birds don't just fly, they fall down and get up. Nobody learns without getting it wrong

I carefully placed my arms under her and in one breath I picked her up from the chair. She was way lighter than I expected. She barely weight anything and I frowned bothered by that. Her head shifted to the side and slid out my grip hanging in the mid air without any support. Trying not to fall and not to wake her up I pulled her head closer to myself and placed it on my chest.

Now her breathing was in sync with my heart beats. "Looks like no one is coming to get us tonight." I sighed and chuckle escaped my mouth shaking her whole body together with mine from the wave of laughter. I weakly kicked the door of the classroom and it swung open letting us out. As I passed by the guard's booth, I noticed him asleep, front entrance wasn't even locked.

The starts upon us shined magically tonight. I walked all the way home with her body in my hands, but I didn't have what to complain about. I opened the door and walked into the dark hallway, one part of my brain was telling me that what I was doing wasn't right, but my heart objected. I could't leave her at school, and I couldn't stay there with her either, I needed to take care of her and that was the right thing to do.

I won't give up, no I won't give in
'Til I reach the end and then I'll start again. No I won't leave, I wanna try everything. I wanna try even though I could fail. I won't give up, no I won't give in.'Til I reach the end and then I'll start again . No, I won't leave, I wanna try everything. I wanna try even though I could fail.

The wrong thing to do was to leave someone like her in need alone, as music teacher and even her parents did. Where were they? Why weren't they looking for her?

Look how far you've come, you filled your heart with love. Baby you've done enough, take a deep breath. Don't beat yourself up, don't need to run so fast
Sometimes we come last, but we did our best.

I tip toed into my room. A single street lamp was flickering outside the window, that was the whole light source. I placed her weightless body on top of my bed and sat down on the chair next to it. I found it creepy myself to be watching her like that, but I couldn't help it. She was so fragile and beautiful, like a flower, yet so strong, a real warrior, like an angel. All she needed was wings.

Her chest switched from pumping up and down slowly, to moving in crazy speed and she frowned squishing the edge of my sheets in between her fingers. I saw a sweat drop roll down her forehead and I leaned in closer. Her mouth opened as if she was about to scream, but her lips kept on moving without a sound. Of course.

I knew I shouldn't have done it. But I broke one too many rules tonight already to fight back this urge. I wondered if I would get blamed if she knew what I did. However I was ready to take a risk. I leaned in so close I could feel her breathing and placed a kiss on her forehead. Her heart beat slowed down. She came back to peaceful sleep.

I'll keep on making those new mistakes. I'll keep on making them every day those new mistakes.