Because of a Girl Like Me

Chapter 8.

It had been three days since that night with Declan. I have avoided Sean by telling him I had the flu. He insisted on calling multiple times a day to check on me, but so far I had kept him away. He couldn't afford getting sick and missing work. I heard someone knock on the door and dad yell he was getting it. A minute later dad walked into my room holding a gorgeous bouquet of pink tulips and white Gerber daisies. My two favorite kinds of flowers.

"These are for you pumpkin." He told me cheerfully. "That Sean sure does spoil you don't he? He's a good kid." Dad said handing the flowers and a card over to me. I pulled out my phone so I could call Sean and thank him, they really were thoughtful. I took the card out of the envelope and was about to hit call on my phone when I realized the handwriting was not Sean's.

A beautiful girl deserves beautiful flowers. I can't stop thinking of you and I thought you should know- Declan

I can't believe he sent me flowers. Was it true he was still thinking of me? I mean obviously he was, he sent flowers. I had been thinking of him too. I had gotten his number from Stella the other day when she called to apologize for leaving me at the party, apparently the guy she hooked up with was some kind of sex machine. Anyway, I hadn't had the nerve to actually call him. My phone pinged in my hand.

Unknown: Do you like your flowers?

It was a text from an unknown number. I checked it against the number that Stella had given me and sure enough they were the same. He must have gotten my number from Stella.

I do. They are very beautiful. Thank you!

Unknown: They aren't as beautiful as you are, but I'm glad you like them

I'm sorry I haven't called, I wanted to. I guess I got shy lol

Unknown: That's ok. I meant what I wrote about still thinking about you...

I've been thinking of you too J A lot actually...

Unknown: Well I think I have an idea that could fix our problem

Oh? And what would that be?

Unknown: I will pick you up at 7 and you will see ;)

Okay

Unknown: Can't wait

I had just put my phone down when it went off again. The stupid grin was quickly wiped off my face.

Sean: I'm coming over. We need to talk.

SHIT!!!

Oh god, what could Sean need to talk to me about? He was going to see that I was very not sick. He was also going to see the flowers. He would probably find it pretty strange for me to just have flowers sitting in my room.

Sean arrived 10 minutes later, right as my dad was heading out for a few days. As they passed Dad gave Sean a pat on the back. "Nice job with those flowers kid, bet they cost you a pretty penny."

Oh my god, DAD!!

Sean just walked past him and past me and straight to my room. I followed him, regret and guilt eating at my stomach. I wasn't sure I regretted what I had started with Declan, but I really did regret that it was going to hurt Sean. He'd dealt with a lot of pain in his life, and he didn't deserve more. I felt about two feet tall. Sean was standing in front of my dresser when I walked into the room. He was looking down at the flowers sitting there. He rounded on me, looking angrier than I think I have ever seen him.

"You're cheating on me Sienna?!" He shouted. "After all we've been through together, you could just burn me like this. I don't even fucking know you anymore... God!" He had his hands in his hair, "Do I not treat you well? Do I not always try to be the best guy for you? What are you doing Si?" He was angry, but under that was so much hurt. His voice cracked when he said my name again. "Aren't you going to say something? Anything? Sienna?"

"Sean, I'm...shit, Sean I'm sorry," I was crying already. "Sean I never meant to hurt yo-"

He cut me off.

"You didn't mean to hurt me?" he exploded. "You went to a party at fucking Matt's house. My friend Matt? You went to his house with that whore you call a friend. You dressed up like some skank and went to my friend's house. There were people WE BOTH KNOW there and you cozy up with some guy? That's you not trying to hurt me?" He was yelling know. Red faced and crazed eyes. He had fat tears welling up in his own eyes, just like the ones pouring from my face.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. I really truly did mean it.

He just looked at me. He honestly looked confused, and like maybe he really didn't know who I was.

"So what is this to you?" He gestured to the flowers. "Is it just a fling? It just happened because you got drunk, what? Is this serious or what Sienna? You've got to tell me." I think he was holding his breath for the answer.

"Sean...I don't know."

It wasn't the answer he wanted. He just stood there dumfounded. He nodded his head and ran his fingers through his hair again.

"Sienna, I have loved you my whole life. If that's not enough for you, I don't know what is." He blinked the tears out of his eyes. "Just be careful of the person you're becoming. I hope you know what you're doing." He walked to me and wiped the tears from my face. "Goodbye Si." He kissed the top of my head and walked out of my room, out of the apartment, out of my life.

I spent the next two hours crying in my bed. Not because the relationship was over, but because I was a terrible person. He was a good guy, one of the few real true good guys and I had misused him and pushed him away. I told myself he would get over me. That he'd make some other girl so happy. I told myself it was better for him to move on to someone who could love him back the way he deserved. Telling myself those things didn't make me feel all that much better, but I hoped that they were true. But now it was almost 5pm and I needed to clean myself up and get ready for my first date with Declan.