In the morning i woke up at 6am just to get all dressed up.
"EDWINA C'MON WERE GOING TO BE LATE IF YOU DONT HURRY" dad yelled
"chill dad geez" I walked down the stairs wearing a mini skirt and a pink tank top. my hair was tied back into a high pony tail with a pink ribbon tied around the hair tie, i wore high heeled shoes and wore a peachy coloured eye shadow.
"Edwina why are you dressed like that?" my mother yelled from the kitchen as she was packing my bag for me because i was running so late
"im just trying out a new style" i hissed as i had been up really early.
we piled in the car and made our way to the school, when i got there i got out of the car and i saw atleast 4 heads turn to look at me. people were whispering and nudging each other. i finally felt like i fit in and i couldnt wait for J to see me.
The bell rang for homegroup and i strutted off the class with my head heald high. When i walked into class about 2 heads turned Js not being one of them. Darcy was already sitting in her usual seat so i went and sat next to her.
"geez you look hot" she said smiling and randomly clapping her hands as she does alot when she gets excited.
"so has J looked at you yet?" she asked
"No" i said putting my head down, suddenly Darcy throws a ball of paper at him, it hits him right on the head so of corse he looks up.
"huh" he said lifting his head off the desk, Darcy saw that he was looking so she pointed to me and mouthed the words "isnt she hot" but he didnt pay any attention and put his head back on the desk.
At recces i sat under the same tree eating the same food when the same girl that called me a homeless person aproached me once again.
"oh you look less of a homeless person now ahah.. your a little chubby though" then she walked off looking back and giving me the finger. i looked down at my stomache
"your not fat" i said to myself trying to hold myself back from tears. i walked over across the oval to go and speak to J. he was sitting on the benches on the side of the oval having a drink, I walked across the oval to get to him but my heels kept sinking into the ground, i took my shoes off and ran over to him.
"hey J" i said smiling
" oh hi edwina" he said looking the other way. i stood there swaying my hips waiting for him to start conversation.
"so..." i awkwardly knelt down
"so what?" he said shaking his head.
"J..is there something wrong?" i was getting worried because hes acting like a whole diffrent person.
"yes there is. first of all you changed i liked the way you were before and now your a barbie doll i dont like those kinds of girls at the rate your going you could be a cheerleader and second of all your getting a little chubby..." he just walked off.
"I DID THIS ALL FOR YOU" i screamed across the oval and i threw my shoes at him hoping they would hit him. i ran off crying and sat in the bathroom all recess and all lunch.
Half way through lunch my phone went off in my pocket.
"hello?" i said sniffeling
"hey its me" said the voice on the other side of the phone
"whos me?" i had no idea who this was
"Jason" yes, it was jason and i didnt want to talk to him because of what he said to me earlier on that day.
"look im sorry if i hurt you i find it flattering that you changed just for me but if you payed attention you would see that i liked you the way you were, i dont care about the looks i care about personality." he was so sorry he even started to cry a little
"and i know it was very unnessary for me to call you chubby because your not you are perfect, im waiting outside the girls bathroom please come out and give me a hug". i hung up and walked out of the bathroom, it was pouring with rain but J just stood there in the rain waiting for me to come out.
He ran up to me and gave me a huge hug.
"I love you" he whisperd in my ear. my insides went all warm
"pardon?" i whisperd back
" i said. i love you" at that moment he gave me a kiss on the lips, a kiss in the rain made the pain go away.
"wow" i said smiling
"what?" he smirked whipping my lipgloss off his face
"that was my first kiss" i said covering my face. he looked surprised but then he smiled
" so that means im your first boyfriend then".
"so you mean me.. and you... are" i was speechless. he just giggled.
At the end of the day he walked me out to my dads car holding my hand and when i had to go he gave me a peck on the cheek. when i got into the car my dad sat there with his arms folded.
"what?" i said laughing
"what was that boy doing?" he was really peed off
"he was holding me hand"
"why would he do that" dad grunted
"because he loved me?" he shoved him a little as a joke.
"holding hands is bad" he shoved me back
"OH NO IM GOING TO GET PREGNANT FROM HOLDING HIS HAND" i giggled
dad didnt find the funny side and started driving home.
when we got home dad started an argument with me.
"I HAVE A BOYFRIEND.. SO WHAT?" i screamed
"ITS YOUR SECOND DAY AT SCHOOL AND YOU ALREADY HAVE A BOYFRIEND" i had never seen him so mad in my life
"IT WAS A BAD DECISSION TO LET YOU GO TO SCHOOL I MEAN SERIOUSLY LOOK AT YOU, YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND AND YOU DIED YOUR HAIR AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON THE CLOTHING THEY DONT EVEN SUIT YOU.. YOUR TOO FAT" i was shocked to here my own father call me fat. i held my stomache and screamed
"GET OUT I NEVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN" i slammed my door shut and locked it. i looked at myself in the mirror and held my stomache. I ran into my bathroom and did something i shouldnt of done.. i made myself throw up. i thought it would make me skinnier but in reality it made me unhealthy. i just wanted to be perfect for J.
