The fear of moving and new houses
My name is Byun Baekhyun. I just turned 23, and I'm in uni for cinematography at Chung-Ang University in Seoul South Korea. My favorite color is blue, and i have a cat named Sammy. Oh yeah! and I'm scared of.. well... everything. Its been that way basically my whole life. It started with rational things such as heights and the dark, then it grew to weirder things such as moths and the number thirteen. I recently had to move to Seoul from Degu though, as this is where my Uni is. Im honestly terrified of moving house. The idea of living in an unfamiliar place is scary. I could get lost so easily! I just have to try to make the best of it I guess.
My best friend ,Kai, offered to move with me but he isn't very... How do I put this.. Shy? Let's just say there's usually a different girl at his house every night. I'll let you imagine why. Anyways, it just wouldn't work out. I'm actually quite innocent. I'm matured enough to know my sexuality but to anxious and shy to act on it. I've never even been in a relationship! What kind of 23 year old has never been in a relationship before?
My new house isn't that bad. It's quite large as a matter of fact. It has two floors, two bedrooms, two bathrooms, an ginormous kitchen (which is a bonus since I love food), and an even bigger lounge. There's an attic too but I've already decided I would go there since.. You know.. Fear... So I put a lock on it to keep myself from the dark abyss above me and whatever's up there from ever coming down to my home.
The movers had just finished sitting the couch down when I paid them for their service, giving a tip to the short one since he was pretty intimidating. He seemed really violent and I didn't want to take any chances and anger him. I shut the door and let Sammy out of his travel cage before flopping on the couch and mapping the placement of furniture and knickknacks in my head.
Sammy wandered about as the piece of the brown sectional I was sprawled out on pulled me into its comfort and caused me to fall asleep, with nothing accomplished.
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I awoke to sammy jumping on my body. I discovered myself laid out on the couch, boxes surrounding me, and the sun completely set. Of course I didn't turn any lights in the house on before completely passing out. My fear of the dark kicked in and I felt for my phone, soon finding it but seeing the battery was dead.
Great. Not even a flashlight. I started panicking more than I already had been and stood up, shaking like a leaf and frantically searched for the light switch. Blindly, my hands found their way to the switch and I heaved a sigh of relief as my panic subsided. I looked around the room for my bag that held my charger, all while humming a tune. I knew the song but I couldn't quite name it. Nonetheless I carried on and plugged in the charger and phone, setting it gently in the floor by the outlet.
I walked through the house, turning on nearly every light just for my piece of mind before returning to my starting point.
"I should probably unpack a little, huh?" I asked sammy, knowing id get no reply. I picked up my phone and glanced at the time before returning it to the floor. 1:43 am. My nap left me with heaps of energy and I decided to at least do the kitchen and lounge tonight. A mattress on the floor will have to do tonight as I might not have enough energy to put my bed together.
I let my phone fully charge before plugging it into a speaker on the kitchen counter and putting the music on shuffle. I danced around the kitchen putting dishes and the small amount of non-perishable food I had with me away.
"Fall, everything. Fall, everything. Fall, everything. Heuteojine . Fall, everything. Fall, everything. Fall, everything. Tteoreojine.
Neo ttaeme na ireohge manggajyeo. Geumanhalle ije neo an gajyeo." I sang along to the song as I moved to the living room and pushed the couch into place, before setting up the television.
I stacked movies onto the entertainment stand. Books went into the shelf. I hung pictures, placed coasters, everything until it was all complete. By now it was 4:26 and I was yet again exhausted. Making my way up the wooden stairs I double checked the rooms and decided they looked good enough for now. I located the room the movers had put my bed. I dragged the mattress into the room I claimed as mine and let it fall before throwing a random pillow and my blanket on it and climbing in.
Memories of the short mover clouded my brain, sending shivers down my spine. I think his name was Kang Woo? Kyungsoo? Something like that. The other guy was kind of cute though. He was taller than his partner and he had a noticeable lisp, and he was a lot nicer. It's weird because I think I saw them both crying as they left my house. It might have just been my mind though. or not before drifting to sleep.
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