Forbidden Love

What ifs - chapter 4

Lauren's POV
FINALLY ITS FRIDAY FUCK YES BITCHES! And as following normal Friday routines I am staying at Abbeys house tonight. This is the best part of the week because we eat shit, stay up late, watch movies and to shows, and just talk all night. We always do this at Abbeys house because on Fridays her mum drops us off to school so I take my stuff over in the morning when I walk to her house.

"Let's leave before we get locked in" I say to Abbey when I walk up to her.

"Fuck I'm out of here" she runs off. I catch up and we both burst into laughter. Abbeys mum has to work later then usual to day so we catch the bus home.

*** (skip the bus ride)
"Hey Ashley, how was school?" Abbey asks her little sister who is sitting on the lounge when we get to her house.

"Hey, school was school" Ashley says not talking her eyes off her laptop. We walk into abbeys room and I lop on to her bed. I pick up my phone and go on snap chat, I see that I have one from Chris, it's a photo of him and Jake captioned 'boys night 😎😜✌🏼️'.

"Abbey smile" I take a photo of her looking at my phone confused, I caption it "girls night 💁🏼👌🏼😝''

"Who was that too?" Abbey asks me.

"Oh just Chris he's having a guys night with Jakob so I said we were having a girls night" I respond to her.

Abbeys POV
I couldn't help it but as soon as Lauren mentioned Jakob a smile crept onto my face. I tried to hind it by turning around before she saw I think it worked. I attempt not to let my mind fill with thoughts of Jakob but I can't help it, it's like he has control over my mind. I hate this so much.

*** (skip to 11:00pm)
Lauren and I are lying on my bed staring at my roof talking about who we would think would be a cute couple at our school.

"No omg she hates him so much" I say trying to control my laughter.

"She would kill him if he asked her out" Lauren says laughing "okay but in all seriousness i could see you dating Jakob" I'm sorry did I hear the correctly? Did she just say me, Jakob and dating all in the same sentence? Okay abbey breath slowly in and out.

"Are you joking?" I manage to ask as calmly as possible. Just stay calm.

"Hell yes! You would be so freaking cute! Omg could you imagine it you and Jakob and me and Chris all dating we could all go on double dates we would have so much fun" wow Lauren I didn't see this coming.

"I guess" was all I could say. My mind was filled with Jakob and I. Just like ever other minute of my life. I need to change the topic like now "you must admit you and Chris are the cutest couple out" really abbey? that was the best you could do? Smh.

"We'll come on have you seen the guy? HES PERFECT! Everything about him I love so much" I let Lauren go on talking about Chris but I'm not listening. How can I when I have the guy of my dreams on my mind? I need to tell someone I can't keep it to myself any long it is killing me. But I can't tell her. I can't tell anyone. By telling something about my feelings for Jakob I am admitting them and I don't want that. I don't want to like him but I can't control it, oh how I wish I could.

What if Jakob and I did date though? Wait first he has to like me before we date and we all know that's never going to happened. I just can't get out of my head WHAT IF.

A.N
IM SO SORRY GUYS OMG I HAVENT UPDATED IN FOREVER!

I have had so much shit going on these past few weeks with school and friendships and everything it's just ugh!, also I have had really bad writers block but I am determined to finish this book.

I will try to get the next chapter written and up as soon as I can. I am not leaving you guys I promise
I LOVE YOU ALL
- Abbey xxx

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