Lamppost 《Phan 》

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PJ and Chris has arrived and Dan sat down my himself on one side of the table.

"Dan, You're acting strange..are you feeling okay?"

"I-I'm f-fine.."

Dan wasn't fine. He was swatting and shaking. He was feeling weak.

He was having a panic attack.

How? He had nothing to panic about.

"P-PJ..I think I'm having a panic attack.."

"How?"

"I-I don't know.."

"Breath..? Uh.. I don't know what to do!"

Dan stayed silent and tried to calm himself.

Nope.

"Stay calm. Do you usually take medicine for this?"

"Y-Yeah.."

"Were is it?"

"That cabinent." Dan pointed.

PJ grabbed the pill bottle and took out two. He gave them to Dan and he took them.

"Now, any better?"

"Mmh.."

"Am I a nuisance..?" Dan blurted out.

"No! Dan! You're not a nuisance!"

Dan looked at his hands.

"Will you guys leave..? I,uh, wanna be alone.."

"Sure. If you need anything, text or call me. Come on, Chris. Let's go."

Chris and PJ left leaving Dan to his deep thoughts and anxieties.

What if no one ends up liking me

What if PJ and Chris end up hating me

What if..if..my fans end up hating me..

Dan hesitantly stood up and walked into the bathroom.l

He grabbed a razor from under his sink and broke it.

He put it to his skin and dug in deep, crimson liquid seaping through.

He dropped it and began to cry.

He picked up his phone and dialed PJ'S number.

"P-PJ...H-Help.."

"What? Why?"

"I-I broke a razor and..and I...I cut.."

"Dan..Do I need to come over without Chris?"

"Yeah.."

PJ stayed on a call with Dan until he arrived there.

PJ looked at dan calmly.

"Daniel James Howell. Why?"

"I can't feel anything. Like. Emotions."

"What do you mean, Dan?"

"I can't feel happiness. All I feel is bluntness.."

"Dan, it'll pass. Just find good friends and people to hang around with."

"You and Chris and terrible friends."