Lamppost 《Phan 》

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Recap:
"You and Chris are terrible friends."

"I know I shouldn't have come help you. You're  on your own. I don't give a crap if you kill yourself."

"Bye."

Dan stood up and walked into his bathroom.

"D-Dan..?"

PJ walked towards the closed bathroom door.

"I-It was a j-joke...Dan?"

No answer PJ banged on the door and it opened to reveal Dan with more cuts up and down his arms.

"Daniel James Howell, don't you ever think I would leave you to die. Dan, Chris, Louise, and many  others care about you. Don't go off doing something you'd regret."

Dan looked at the ground and nodded.

"I-I'll be fine, Peej. Y-You can go home.."

"You sure?"

Dan nodded once again and PJ gathered his stuff and left.

Dan then made a video about how he's been feeling.

"Hello Internet.  Okay. I need to vent slash talk to you guys. So I did something I'm not proud of and wish I could undo it. But I can't. I made permanent markings on my body and I can't rid of them. When I say 'markings' I mean cuts. I made cuts up and down my arm and I can't rid of them. I feel empty and sad all the time. Depression is taking over my body and I can't get rid of it. I hate everything about myself and hate that I do. I'm miserable and don't know what to do about it except sit and do nothing. Tell me things good about this world in the comments. Bye."

Dan turned off the camera and began editing.

Dan uploaded and got a text from Phil.

Lion: Hey. You okay??

Bear: I don't know anymore.

Lion: Can I help??

Bear: I don't know..

Lion: Let me come over.

Bear: Okay.. *adress*.

Lion: I'll be over in five.

Bear: Okay. Be careful.

Lion: Okay. I'll text you when I get there.

Dan sighed and lied back on his bed.

Five minutes passed and sure enough, there was a knock on his door.

He stood up and answered it.

"Hi."

"H-Hi.."

Dan was nervous because he'd never had a proper conversation with the taller, probably older, boy.

"Are you alright? Need a hug?"

Dan nodded, desperately wanting a human encounter.

Phil hugged the shorter boy and ran his hands through Dan's curly hair.

"Short steps. Deep breaths. Everything is alright. Chin up, I cant, step into the spotlight. She said 'I'm sad' somehow without any words. I just stood there, searching for an answer. When this world is no more, the moon is all we'll see. I'll ask you to fly away with me. When the stars all fall down. They empty from the sky but I don't mind if you're with me then everything's alright."

Phil sang gently into Dan's ear and Dan did something that would change everything forever.

Dan leaned up and kissed Phil on the lips.