"Woah, Spencer what the hell?!" He had a guilty look on his face, I know he didn't mean to do it. I could tell he didn't want to talk about it, so I got up and walked away.
On the plane, Spencer sat with his headphones in and his eyes closed. I couldn't tell if he was sleeping or not but I'm going to try and talk to him when we get back to the office. Just as I'm about to close my eyes, I feel a dip in the seat next to me. I open my eyes and Derek stares at me with sympathy in his eyes. I know he knows something was wrong but he didn't want to get in the middle of it by asking.
After I had explained everything to Derek a tear streamed down my face and he pulled me in for a hug. Hurting Spencer is the last thing I would want. He just wants to feel loved after what happened with Maeve.
As the elevator dings and opens up, I follow Reid through the doors and to his desk. "Spence, can we talk about what happened?" He has a hard time showing emotion, so I can guess what his answer is going to be. "There's nothing to talk about." He replied nonchalantly. This might be harder than I expected. "You kissed me. We have a lot to talk about" I might have to leave this alone for right now, but if he doesn't talk now, he never will. "Yes. I kissed you and you didn't like it. That's it. End of story." He responded harshly. "Fine" I turned around, on the verge of crying. I just want my best friend back. I grabbed my jacket and my bag and walked out.
As I pull into my driveway, I can see Henry and Will playing outside. I smile at my boys and exit the car. "Hey, how was he today?" I asked. Henry has been having separation anxiety lately. We're not sure what to do so Will cut his job down to part time so he could stay home more often. "He cried once for about 10 minutes but that was it. Um, can we go inside? I have something I want to tell you." Not sure what this could be about but whatever. Henry is in his room playing and we both sit down at the table to talk. Will has a nervous look on his face as he starts to speak. "I cheated on you. Henry's babysitter came by to check on him this morning and I don't know what happened but one thing just led to another, and before I knew it, we were both naked.. I don't know why I did it but I promise I am so so-"
"Stop speaking." I guess now's the time where I tell him about Spencer.
"Spencer kissed me this morning. We were talking and he just leaned in and did it." I am furious. Why would he do this?! After being married for 6 years and having a son together, he just throws it all away! After sitting in silence for a few minutes and collecting our thoughts, I decided to speak up. "I think we need to take a break" I stood up, grabbed my purse and stormed out the door. I guess Henry will be staying with Will until we figure things out.
I drive back to the BAU with tears streaming down my face. I don't know where I plan on staying tonight, but I know I need to get my mind off of things. It's after hours so everyone has gone home by now. I sit down at my desk and get to work.
4 case files and and hour and a half later, I can tell it's starting to get dark out so I grab my things and walk out to the elavators. I see Penelope walking into the elevator. "Hey Garcia, do you have plans tonight? Will and I are kind of on a break right now and I was wondering if you had extra room?" She lives in a small apartment so I doubt it but it's worth a shot seeing as there's no one else to ask. "I'm sorry JJ, but I'm renovating at the moment and everything's packed away. Kevin's coming over to help would you like to join us?" She asks. "No it's okay. Have fun and thank you for the offer, but I'll find somewhere" I answer hopefully. "Ok, have a goodnight" she says with a smile. I wish I was as positive a person as she was. "Goodnight" I reply. I get into my car and think about things as I drive away.
I walk up the stairs with my head held high. This is a long shot but I have to try. I knock on the door until I hear footsteps getting louder and louder until finally the door opens.
"JJ?"
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There's something that's really been bothering me for a couple of months but I'm not sure how I feel about it yet. I want to talk about it but I don't know how.
Anyways, hi everyone! Wow it's been so long since I updated. I'll try to update again while I'm on Christmas break.
with love,
-t
