Ski jumping - imagines

Daniel-André Tande - It's too late to apologize

 Author: wellingerandreas 
Pairing: Daniel Andre Tande x Reader
Warnings: NONE

Meanings: Y/N – your name  

Word Count: 1127

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 It all started as a bet. They said I could never get a guy like him to be with me. So my friend, who was also his friend, came up with idea of this bet. He gave me one month to get him to fall in love with me. But in the end i was the one falling deeply in love with him. Everything looked just fine, we were happy. At least it looked like that. I told my friend that we have to cancel the bet, that I can't play with his heart beacuse I really do love him. And he agreed, he agreed and said that everyone can see how happy we are. We really were happy.

But then this day came. He came home and didn't say a word to me. He went to our room and packed all his clothes. He didnt say anything. He looked broken. He knew. It was right before his new season started, right before he was leaving for Germany. I tired to stop him but he didn't listen to me. All he said was:
»Was it worth it?« His voice was broken, I could tell that he was crying.
No, it was not worth it. It was not worth breaking his heart, but I didn't know how to fix this. I didn't know what to say. He turned around and looked at me. His eyes were red, no sparkels in his beautiful blue eyes. All I saw was sadness and broken heart. I wanted to hug him, I wanted to hug him like I always did when he felt like he couldn't do it anymore. I wanted to tell him that i was sorry, really sorry. But he wouldn't believe. He trusted me and I played with his heart. Even though I love him, I really do, he will never believe me. So I didn't say anything. I stayed quiet. He grabbed his car keys and slammed the door. I flinched and then it hit me, I lost him, I lost him maybe beacuse I didn't say a word to him. When I heard his car driving away I finally broke down, I started crying. I said »I love you« and »I'm sorry. I really am« so many times, but he couldn't hear. I heard my phone ringing and i ran to living room, hoping it will be him. But no it was Fanni. I didn't know if I should answer but just incase i did.
»Dani heard about the bet« was all he said and at this point i was crying even more.
He told me he was sorry for talking about it but now it was too late. I told him that I can't talk to him right now and said goodbye. I went to our bedroom. When I opened the room it was empty. Everything was gone. His clothes, his shoes, his things. Everything. He only left the hoodie i bought him. I picked it up. It still smelt like him. I went to our bed and sit on it. It was too quiet. I couldn't hear his voice, his laugh. Laugh that I fell in love with. I sat there for hours. I was hoping that maybe he would come back. But he never did.

Finally I heard door bell. My heart skiped a bit. Was it Dani? I was hoping it was him. When I came to the door and opened them, I saw it wasn't. It was Fannis. But not only him. He was there with Kenneth, Johann, Joachim. They were all there. Fannis hugged me, hugged me really tight. For a second i felt better. But then it hit me. They should be on a plane, on their way to Germany. »Why are you all here?« was all i could ask.
»Maybe you should sit down« was all that Kenneth said.
Something was wrong. Something bad happened.
»He got in a car accident« said Johann.
I froze up on the spot. He was joking right?
»They tried to save him but it was to late« said Joachim.
I didn't say anything. It can't be real was all I could think about all the time. They are joking. He is fine. He is trying to fool me.
»Y/N?« said Fannis.
And when I looked at him, I knew it's true.
»When?« was all that came out of my mouth and I wasnt sure how but it did. »Right after he left your house. He called me and told me what happened« said Johann.
»Right after I called you« said Fannis.
»I didn't know he already left« he added.
»I told him that you can work this out. He was about to turn around« said Johann.
But I couldn't listen anymore. It was my fault. I could have stop him. I could have at least say something and maybe it would make him stay. It could make everything different.
»If you want to, you can see him« said Joachim.
See him? I can't see him. He won't see me. I can't say I'm sorry and he can't say that it's alright. If I see him it would all be real. I would lost him forever. And I can't. I can't do this.
»It's my fault« was what i said and started sobbing.
»It's not« said Fannis and tried to hug me.
But this time i pushed him away.
»Of course it is. I could have made him stay and i haven't. I could at least try AND I HAVEN'T! Don't you dare say that it isn't my fault« i screamed.
»I want you all to leave« i finished.
»It's not only you hurting Y/N. We all are« is what Fannis said, stood up and left the house.
All the boys hugged me and left. At least I though they left, but Fannis came back. He said that he knew I couldn't be alone in this. I went to pick up his hoodie and hugged it to me. This was his only thing I had. The only thing he left behind after leaving me.
»I know this will make it worse. But you have to know that he loved you. He really did« said Fannis and I looked at him.
»I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. It should have been me! Not him! I should have been the one leaving not him!« I sobbed
»No one should have been in this! Y/N you have to know that he wasn't mad at you. He was mad at me for making you do this bet. But at the same time he said thank you, because he would have never been brave enough to talk to you. He thanked me for making you brave enough to do it!«.

»Fannis, I can't do it. I can't« I said.
»His family is coming here in like an hour. Do you want me to be here with you?« he asked.
Honestly I didn't want to see anyone. How will I look at his mom and tell her that we had a fight and that he left because of me? How will I talk to his dad? How can i even get close to his family if I'm the one who took him away from them. But i nodded, I needed someone beside me. When his family arrived I broke down. His little brother who looked almost exactly like Dani was standing there. I hugged his mom and told her that I was sorry. That I was sorry for taking him away from them. She said that it wasn't my fault. Why were people saying this to me. It was all my fault.
»Will you go with us?« his sister asked.
She wanted me with her, she wanted me to be with her when she sees him. I was not ready to see him like that. But I agreed. We came to the hospital. His dad asked for his room. I don't remember the number. I don't remember anything to be honest. His sister was holding my hand. I was shaking. I didn't want to see him for the last time. We started to walk. I don't know how long we walked but when we arrived I was not sure if I would be able to take the pain after seenig him dead and finally understaning he is gone forever. I was standing in front of his room. They said I can go first, but I didn't want to. Only then I remembered that Fannis was there too and I asked him to go with me. I opened the door and there he was, lying on the bed. I couldn't walk, I couldn't move. He was really there, lying, not breathing just lying there. Fannis looked at me and stepped back. He left me alone with him. I don't know how but somehow i went to his bed. I touched his hand and it was too cold. His hands were always cold but never so cold. His face had two scares but he looked beautiful as always.
»I'm sorry« was what came out of me.
It was too late, I knew he wouldn't hear it, but I had to say it. I was hoping that he will say
»Baby girl everything will be okay« like he always did, but nothing.
His mom came into the room. When she came to our house she didn't cry but now she broke down. She came beside me and hugged me. She said that she will never see this accident as my fault and that I'm her family too, that they will always be right beside me. I was scared of losing them too. We were all scared. His mom went to his bed.
»We will miss you honey« was what she said.
And my sobbing became worse. I had to leave the room and I did. I had to leave the hospital and I did. His sister called my name but i couldn't stop. I went to Fannis car and he ran after me. We just sat there. I asked him to drive me home. He started the car and radio started playing.
»It is very hard and sad for us to tell you this but a tragic accident has happend today around 2 pm and claimed a life of a 22 year old A-team norwegian ski jumper Daniel André Tande«.
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All the love, Anja.