My Struggles With Depression

How It All Started

-Everything was perfect before the 5thNovember2011, I had received the most devastating news that my great nan had passed away for some of you , you would think why it's not a big deal get over it! , but we was really close she has been in my life since the day I was born. She was a inspiration to my nan,mum,sister and i, to loose her was like losing your first pet dog or losing one of your arms!. I was 11 and this was the first death or the first death I had understood and been older enough to feel emotion towards I guess. I felt as though I had to stay strong for my family and be there for them. I didn't show any emotion ,I sort of just shut down and never really woke up again. April the following year I went to an amazing place Barbados which was white sands gorgeous beaches lovely food&drink , met some amazing people.