My Struggles With Depression

Tools...

-Weeks laster we was lucky enough to receive an appointment.I spoke to a lovely lady -(lady J) she helped me tackle my ocd and my feeling of worthlessness and my self harm started to get less and less. My suicidal thoughts continued happening but with the tools in my tool box which she had given me gave me strength within myself to make me believe that I could win this on going battle with myself. By this time I had tried committing suicide at least twice maybe even three times by purposely cutting myself with a razor and starving myself to try and end my pain which I was going through. Some reading this may think your selfish and you would inflict the pain on others and your mum and sister and grandparents but   it definitely was not like that. You would much rather still be feeling capable of living a life then not being able to manage it and it all gets on top of you. My family did think that I wouldn't of made it to my 15th birthday as things got really bad and I did write a suicide note saying everything has got too much and I cannot cope with life. I went to school and come back and my mum had found my suicide note and broke down she realised that soon there would be nothing to stop be from just not being here.